Commitment
How do you view commitment?
Commitment, to me, is dedication. I am committed to my job, to my friends and to my family. I have always been fiercely loyal in that regard, and nothing could ever change that. Commitment in terms of romance, however.... that's a different story.
There was a time when I saw committing oneself to another as a beautiful thing. I longed for the day when I would find that perfect man, get married, have a family... the whole nine yards. But now, that's not an option. Not in the traditional sense, at least. I will outlive any mortal I come to care about, so the only kind of marriage that I can have is the eternal bonding to another vampire, something Alistair has already proposed of me. But I refused him, as I know I will refuse every other vampire that may come along with the same idea. I will not allow myself to be taken as another's mate. There may come a day, in the distant future, when I change my mind about this, but for now I stand resolute in my determination to remain independant. A commitment of such an endless nature is just too much for me to wrap my head around. So for now, my only dedication will be to my career, where it belongs. It's easier that way. Everyone I love is going to die on me some day, but my job (hopefully) will always be there.
Commitment, to me, is dedication. I am committed to my job, to my friends and to my family. I have always been fiercely loyal in that regard, and nothing could ever change that. Commitment in terms of romance, however.... that's a different story.
There was a time when I saw committing oneself to another as a beautiful thing. I longed for the day when I would find that perfect man, get married, have a family... the whole nine yards. But now, that's not an option. Not in the traditional sense, at least. I will outlive any mortal I come to care about, so the only kind of marriage that I can have is the eternal bonding to another vampire, something Alistair has already proposed of me. But I refused him, as I know I will refuse every other vampire that may come along with the same idea. I will not allow myself to be taken as another's mate. There may come a day, in the distant future, when I change my mind about this, but for now I stand resolute in my determination to remain independant. A commitment of such an endless nature is just too much for me to wrap my head around. So for now, my only dedication will be to my career, where it belongs. It's easier that way. Everyone I love is going to die on me some day, but my job (hopefully) will always be there.