long day..
so i pretty much did nothing productive at work today. in fact, i have no idea where my day went but now i have a butt load of things to do tomorrow and consequences for my inaction are waiting for me right around the corner even though i'm doing the best i can on one of them (the other... i'm just lazy like and the client is unresponsive to what they have to do so i'm slowing down on prioritising)!
i'm not sure with all the marriages popping up here and there. what's up with that people? i mean, besides the fact that i'm married, i think i'm rather young to be and that my situation is a bit unique... but i guess not. it seems like every day i sign on to something there is a new engagement waiting. it just feels strange to think back and not really be able to 'feel' my past and what it was like before ilana. it just seems like so long ago but it really wasn't. anyway, off the point - or rather about to get off this point and on to my real point.
i was thinking last night about what it would be like to go back to boulder (something that will probably happen in about 4 years). how will it feel being back in a place that has probably changed a lot and misses all of my friends. will it still be the same? no, of course not. but how would it feel going to places i used to go a lot that are still there. how can i experience the same thing as i used to without reminiscing about past times? what happens if i run into one of those crazy ladies i went out with? what will i do when i get out there? i have like no skills that are valued in the states and i have no trade skills... back to reception work? maybe i'll just go back to do a phd or something. at least then i wouldn't have to deal with the crazy american work system. i can't really imagine being in a world where i don't have 5 weeks holiday a year plus public holidays... plus paternity leave (NOT THAT I'M HAVING KIDS NOW) for whenever, if ever, i do have kids. people asked me at work today if it was a public holiday in the states, and i said yes it was, and then they asked why they were getting e-mails from US clients. i said it was because us industry folks are dumb and don't know how to relax or pay respect for civil rights activists and recognise both the achievements and the long way we still have to go on social equity and justice in the country. but i really don't know why they were working. what's wrong with them?
i'm not sure with all the marriages popping up here and there. what's up with that people? i mean, besides the fact that i'm married, i think i'm rather young to be and that my situation is a bit unique... but i guess not. it seems like every day i sign on to something there is a new engagement waiting. it just feels strange to think back and not really be able to 'feel' my past and what it was like before ilana. it just seems like so long ago but it really wasn't. anyway, off the point - or rather about to get off this point and on to my real point.
i was thinking last night about what it would be like to go back to boulder (something that will probably happen in about 4 years). how will it feel being back in a place that has probably changed a lot and misses all of my friends. will it still be the same? no, of course not. but how would it feel going to places i used to go a lot that are still there. how can i experience the same thing as i used to without reminiscing about past times? what happens if i run into one of those crazy ladies i went out with? what will i do when i get out there? i have like no skills that are valued in the states and i have no trade skills... back to reception work? maybe i'll just go back to do a phd or something. at least then i wouldn't have to deal with the crazy american work system. i can't really imagine being in a world where i don't have 5 weeks holiday a year plus public holidays... plus paternity leave (NOT THAT I'M HAVING KIDS NOW) for whenever, if ever, i do have kids. people asked me at work today if it was a public holiday in the states, and i said yes it was, and then they asked why they were getting e-mails from US clients. i said it was because us industry folks are dumb and don't know how to relax or pay respect for civil rights activists and recognise both the achievements and the long way we still have to go on social equity and justice in the country. but i really don't know why they were working. what's wrong with them?