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I don't know what I'm going to do ... I'm such a fucking coward....
I keep promising that I'll get a job and work my ass off to do better.....but I'm so fucking scared that whatever job I get, I'll screw up horribly.
I'm no better than my brother or sister....my brother has a job, no matter how badly he's screwing it up.....and my sister is out on her own pretty much.
I WANT to be on my own.....but I'm so fucking scared to fail......I feel like I already have and it kills me......I hate myself constantly because I'm so fucking scared that its hard for me to apply for something.....
I keep promising that I'll get a job and work my ass off to do better.....but I'm so fucking scared that whatever job I get, I'll screw up horribly.
I'm no better than my brother or sister....my brother has a job, no matter how badly he's screwing it up.....and my sister is out on her own pretty much.
I WANT to be on my own.....but I'm so fucking scared to fail......I feel like I already have and it kills me......I hate myself constantly because I'm so fucking scared that its hard for me to apply for something.....