quick update
...if she spins fast enough
then maybe the broken pieces of her heart
will stick together
but ain't no gyroscope can spin forever....
Quick version: the gyroscope stopped, and I had a massive meltdown, partially wrapped around/triggered by tensions and miscommunications with Kevin, and well, yeah, melted down. The exhaustion of job-hunting, care-giving, household maintenance, trying to rebuild/build relationships, the constant grief over having lost my music and my musical community... I finally collapsed.
Fortunately, I have an amazing core group of friends who are hold me together as I try to rebuild. Some stuff, like the relationship with Kevin, is on hold (we still love each other, but there are complications and mutual enabling that we need to sort out, so that we can rebuild on a better foundation); some needs to be restarted, and I need to actually talk more about the help I need.
And then maybe my words will come back....
then maybe the broken pieces of her heart
will stick together
but ain't no gyroscope can spin forever....
Quick version: the gyroscope stopped, and I had a massive meltdown, partially wrapped around/triggered by tensions and miscommunications with Kevin, and well, yeah, melted down. The exhaustion of job-hunting, care-giving, household maintenance, trying to rebuild/build relationships, the constant grief over having lost my music and my musical community... I finally collapsed.
Fortunately, I have an amazing core group of friends who are hold me together as I try to rebuild. Some stuff, like the relationship with Kevin, is on hold (we still love each other, but there are complications and mutual enabling that we need to sort out, so that we can rebuild on a better foundation); some needs to be restarted, and I need to actually talk more about the help I need.
And then maybe my words will come back....