quiet grey morning
It was grey and foggy a little while ago; now it's a pale blue-grey sky with white clouds shading out of it (is there a word for when you can't see the edges of the clouds, because they're fading so subtly into the sky behind them?) Still no new temp job, and I'm feeling better (been under the weather for several days, including one of high fever and chills), so I'm writing, and looking around online...
...including looking at the LJ of someone I don't like/respect/trust/believe, because they were connected with someone who's appeared in my life a couple of times recently. It's complicated, but while the person with the LJ (I'll call them Lee) is an unreliable narrator, the other person (who will be Pat, as long as we're handing out gender-neutral names) sets off all sorts of twitchy things in my nervous system. Today, I feel strong enough to do the research, and am making little notes of timeline, things claimed, things done --
-- do other people do this? When I am dealing with this sort of situation (someone making me uneasy/twitchy), I will look for information from multiple sources (these days, I can do online research, social media type stuff; in the old days, it would have been asking around fandom, say, and reading old zines), and make notes, with timelines and quotes --
-- and continuing to come to the conclusion that while both of them are probably good people in some ways, both of them are/will/would be bad for me to be around. I'm likely to run into Pat again, as they're the more active party, and attend events that I sometimes go to, but I will avoid them.
Job-hunting online today, laundry, writing, perhaps going to the library and retrieving books, perhaps dinner with Kevin, being gentle with myself, but getting things done.
...including looking at the LJ of someone I don't like/respect/trust/believe, because they were connected with someone who's appeared in my life a couple of times recently. It's complicated, but while the person with the LJ (I'll call them Lee) is an unreliable narrator, the other person (who will be Pat, as long as we're handing out gender-neutral names) sets off all sorts of twitchy things in my nervous system. Today, I feel strong enough to do the research, and am making little notes of timeline, things claimed, things done --
-- do other people do this? When I am dealing with this sort of situation (someone making me uneasy/twitchy), I will look for information from multiple sources (these days, I can do online research, social media type stuff; in the old days, it would have been asking around fandom, say, and reading old zines), and make notes, with timelines and quotes --
-- and continuing to come to the conclusion that while both of them are probably good people in some ways, both of them are/will/would be bad for me to be around. I'm likely to run into Pat again, as they're the more active party, and attend events that I sometimes go to, but I will avoid them.
Job-hunting online today, laundry, writing, perhaps going to the library and retrieving books, perhaps dinner with Kevin, being gentle with myself, but getting things done.