FUCK THE SHUT UP

[roaddntgothere]

wow....i think i need to lay off the mocha
i gave up caffinated soda for lent...
and diet is nasty
and energy drinks are expensive
so i've resorted to high rev mocha cappuccinos from the A&W thing

but i need to stop...because i did something bad yesterday when i was hyped up on one...

i got home late because we had a stupid band concert
and i was talking to steven about how i was all depressed over justin
and i was like "oh i know
i'll send him an email telling him everything"
so i did...

i dont know if i regret it or not,
i mean its kind of nice to get off my chest, for him to know how i
STILL
feel about him

but
i dunno
.......

shitty..
it was weird, today on my way to chem i was stopped and talkign with lil and duffy, and justin walked up to me and just hugged me.....

i noticed at lunch, this girl he's with, they dont have much physical contact.....
i mean i dont expect them to be all over each other or anything

but its like, when lunch ended and they went their seperate ways, they just hugged....

a normal hug,
like it was nothing special...

maybe she doesnt mean a whole lot to him

maybe its going to be over soon

maybe i'm pathetic

"dont wait for me,
i've got a lot to do,
got a lot to be,

but in the end,
maybe i'll see you there"

sorry that song is playing...sad song..

i think its about cancer

i hate cancer...cancer has killed too many people around me

son
of
a
bitch

i kind of like writing like this
it keeps me from
B O R E D O M
YES IT DOES

pow

heh

haveyoueverittenjustonebigfreakinsentencewithoutanyletterslikemollyhere????????

because i just did

aight now my patheticism is showing
asta