you're not fucking special
Things make a lot more sense to me right now. After a three hour long conversation with a man I had previously idolized, my perspectives are different. He is a lost soul with bullets piercing his being and the octane revving in his veins. I want to fix him - to allow him to fuck things up successfully - that’s all too much my profession. Almost do it on purpose, so that they power is in my hands and no one else can take success away from me. I’ll do it on my own.
If you had a genie and it granted you three wishes - what would you do? Ask for stability, permanent courage, and everlasting fearlessness. You on the other would ask for a million more wishes and never know what to do with them. I have answers and am right, but am usually the quiet one. You are the one with the microphone screaming words at unsuspecting audiences. Embrace that fearlessness you find on stage and help yourself. Sigh.
I got the job at Lucky Artist Booking and start on Monday - that excites me. Could stability be in my future? Stefan is behind me and that even scares me. The fact that someone actually cares about me frightens me and makes me run twice as fast in the other direction. Don’t care about me; I am much more comfortable with being treated like shit. Be an asshole and I will clasp on to that.
Warped Tour is soon - and that is what is motivating me right now.
Ummm. And I’m thinking of starting of a band. Which is on - granted, I was in a band in college, but I don’t know if that’s really a goal I’m ready for at this point in my life. Do I wish to be on a stage in front of people or am i a behind the scene individual?
All questions to be answered and if anyone as the answers - I suppose it’s me.
If you had a genie and it granted you three wishes - what would you do? Ask for stability, permanent courage, and everlasting fearlessness. You on the other would ask for a million more wishes and never know what to do with them. I have answers and am right, but am usually the quiet one. You are the one with the microphone screaming words at unsuspecting audiences. Embrace that fearlessness you find on stage and help yourself. Sigh.
I got the job at Lucky Artist Booking and start on Monday - that excites me. Could stability be in my future? Stefan is behind me and that even scares me. The fact that someone actually cares about me frightens me and makes me run twice as fast in the other direction. Don’t care about me; I am much more comfortable with being treated like shit. Be an asshole and I will clasp on to that.
Warped Tour is soon - and that is what is motivating me right now.
Ummm. And I’m thinking of starting of a band. Which is on - granted, I was in a band in college, but I don’t know if that’s really a goal I’m ready for at this point in my life. Do I wish to be on a stage in front of people or am i a behind the scene individual?
All questions to be answered and if anyone as the answers - I suppose it’s me.