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work was retarded tonight. there was a mini-blizzard which meant about 5 customers. and yet there was 8 cashiers. dumb. so i wasted a lot of time wandering around the store doing nothing and getting bitchy. i left 20 mins early. i got vic to switch hours with me for saturday so i'm happy. the computer sale is that day in the morning. now i can go to the sale right away, then have a couple hours nap time in between that and work. joy.
christmas is a week after that. wtf. i dont have a damn thing for anyone cept devon and andy. shit. i hate christmas for that reason....i never know what to get people, its just a hassle. im spending tons of time working so ill have money to buy gifts for people that i dont even know what to get, and then i am working so much that i dont even have time to shop. and its not like i even really want anything. all im asking for this year is money so i can buy my damn books for school. i feel like a grouch. ive been very bitchy lately. im just too stressed out and i can't handle it. and i think i want to break things off with tom but i dont know how. and then i know that after i did that, i would have a couple weeks of mini-depression and regret. and thats no good. so i dont know. i havent even been able to eat much lately. im never hungry so i end up forcing myself to eat stuff. and i always make normal amounts of food...amounts that regularly i could eat easily. and now i find myself. getting sick and pushing it away. so i dont know. gah.
ill just be glad when school is over and everyone is home. i miss my friends. i havent seen amber in a couple of weeks. and rarely see annie. and gina i never see. and all my boys are off in the military or something.
at least i got to see zach tonight. we went to get cheesesticks like always. wednesdays have sadely become the day i look most forward to. the highlight of my week is going to papa johns and getting cheese sticks, cuz thats the only time i really ever see any friends. :(
im sorry....this was a really bitchy and depressing entry. good night.
christmas is a week after that. wtf. i dont have a damn thing for anyone cept devon and andy. shit. i hate christmas for that reason....i never know what to get people, its just a hassle. im spending tons of time working so ill have money to buy gifts for people that i dont even know what to get, and then i am working so much that i dont even have time to shop. and its not like i even really want anything. all im asking for this year is money so i can buy my damn books for school. i feel like a grouch. ive been very bitchy lately. im just too stressed out and i can't handle it. and i think i want to break things off with tom but i dont know how. and then i know that after i did that, i would have a couple weeks of mini-depression and regret. and thats no good. so i dont know. i havent even been able to eat much lately. im never hungry so i end up forcing myself to eat stuff. and i always make normal amounts of food...amounts that regularly i could eat easily. and now i find myself. getting sick and pushing it away. so i dont know. gah.
ill just be glad when school is over and everyone is home. i miss my friends. i havent seen amber in a couple of weeks. and rarely see annie. and gina i never see. and all my boys are off in the military or something.
at least i got to see zach tonight. we went to get cheesesticks like always. wednesdays have sadely become the day i look most forward to. the highlight of my week is going to papa johns and getting cheese sticks, cuz thats the only time i really ever see any friends. :(
im sorry....this was a really bitchy and depressing entry. good night.