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So I didn't write yesterday but, I am going to make up for that one today. So I really never thought I would have a chance with Becky from seeing her with Terri. She was skinny and I mean I don't think that she was all that attracted. But, I figured she liked small girls and to say the least I am not skinny but, I am not real big either. After going back and forth between Becky and Candi I found some things out that had happened when Candi and I were together. One night Becky told me that she had to tell me something that she said I needed to know. I kept pushing it off and telling her that I didn't want to know. Finally I gave in and this is the story of the beginning of Candi and I splitting up off and on for about seven months. One day Candi had to go to another store and get somethings for her store that she didn't have. Well, she went and asked Terri and Becky if they wanted to go with her and so they went. I had to work that day and Candi had come up there when they got back she had told me they went with her I was cool with it. She said something to me about going out to one of the guys house that worked with her for a get together. I had to close and really didn't want to go but, I did. When I got there they had been drinking and Terri and Becky were fighting. We all sat there for a little while then we all decided to go to town and get some more to drink so I could drink. Candi and I drove a Ford Tauraus station wagon a new one. I drove and I thought you know since I hadn't seen Candi all day that she would sit up front with me. But, she decided that her and Becky were going to sit in the very back by there self so Terri sat up front with me. I was upset since Candi wouldn't set with me and she really hadn't paid that much attention to me since I had even got to the house. So we get something to drink and something to eat and we go back to the house. Candi had to be at work at seven that next morning and she said that she was just going to stay awake. Well Terri and the guys house we were at had went to bed and it was just Candi, Becky, and I in the living room watching T.V. Instead of Candi sitting on the couch with me she sat on the couch becky was sitting on and I was just like whatever. She feel asleep and then I finally feel asleep. So come to find out Becky and Terri practically had sex in the back of our car when they went with Candi. And before I got out to where they was Terri and Candi was doing something to Becky. That was just one time the next time Becky, Terri, Candi, and I along with some other people all went to the pool hall. Come to find out Candi and Becky messed around in the bathroom there and before and after that she was all over me it just don't make any since to me. They went and watched Dirty Dancing Havanna Nights one night when I was at work. Which I didn't understand why Candi was going to watch it because she had already seen it. When they was there they done stuff too.
So in the seven years that Candi and I was together she cheated on me three times that I know of. Although she did kiss a girl that she worked with at a factory when we first got together but, I was young I really did not care then I guess. After becky had told me all this stuff I had to talk to Candi about it. So I had called her at work and asked her if she had cheated on me with Becky and she denied it all. I told her that I was leaving and so she left work early and got there when I was packing all my stuff. She finally came out and told me and when she was telling me it was like it had not mattered what she had done. She kept saying that she didn't tell me cause she didn't want to hurt me and that she kept putting it in the back of her head and forgot about it all happening. Come to find out that night I had come home from work Becky was trying to get her to leave me and be with her. Candi had told her no but, she didn't tell her to leave or anything. Supposibly they didn't do anything that night at all and I to this day don't really know what happened that night. Cause they both told me two different stories. I told Candi that if it didn't mean anything or whatever that she wouldn't have kept doing it and she would have told me if she didn't want to hurt me. Instead she was going to hide it from me and act like nothing happened. I told her that I would have found out from someone about one of the times that something had happened cause people can't keep their mouths shut. I still don't understand how she thought her not telling me was not going to hurt me. I just don't understand and I probably never will but, I guess that is just something I am going to have to live with. They both told me two different things so I don't know. Needless to say I was with Candi and Becky off and on for about 7 months. Finally, I told Candi that I wanted to be with her and no one else cause I didn't want to throw away what we had for seven years. I mean since I was 13 that is all I knew. For two weeks that was great I stayed with her cause while all the shit was going on I had moved back home with my parents. I was cooking dinner one night and I made the remark to her that I wanted to move back in with her and go back to what we had before and she said that she would rather me not cause I was better off living with my parents. Well from that moment on till Halloween I just knew something was not right. I had got her house key so we could wait for her at the house till she got off work. Well, we decided to go some places and ran a little behind and when we got to the house Candi was sitting out front. She had another key to get in the house because I gave her mine back when I moved out so I did not understand that one. So that night Candi, my mom and dad, and I all went out to the club and Candi got plastered. She was crying and telling me and my mom that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me and that she didn't know what she would do with her life if she ever lost me for good. She could not keep her hands off of me and I had never seen Candi like this before. I stayed the night with her and she took me home that next day and then mysteriously she tells me that she has to leave and can't stay the night because she had to do something with work. I was so pissed off I didn't know what to do with my self. I had text messaged her and told her that I couldn't believe that she would just leave not tell my mom bye give me a kiss nothing. I told her that I hated her and the only reason I done that is because I was so mad at her. Four days went by and she never once called me or anything. So I finally got a hold of her and she told me that she had some feelings for some one else. It was this girl that works with her and I can't stand her. So I told Candi it was me or her and that if we split up that we would never have a chance to be together again. I cried didn't eat or sleep for about two weeks from the time she had left my house. My family and I were so confused and didn't understand I would call her and beg her to come back to me and my mom talked to her so maybe she could understand what was going on. But, nothing came out of it. To this day I am with Becky and Candi is with the girl that she had feeling for.
So that is the story about what happened between Candi and I. I am sure I left a lot out but, I get so depressed when I think about it. God I just want to cry I still have alot of feelings for Candi and Still love her a lot. I just know that I am happy now and hope that she is too. I honestly don't know if I could ever go back to Candi after everything that I went through. Although I put her through a lot of shit too but, she hurt me more than anyone ever could. I know who ever reads this is probably thinking if you couldn't be with Candi then how can you be with Becky the girl that all of this was over. I thought about that for the longest time and sometimes I still think about it but, I guess you can't help who you love right!!
So in the seven years that Candi and I was together she cheated on me three times that I know of. Although she did kiss a girl that she worked with at a factory when we first got together but, I was young I really did not care then I guess. After becky had told me all this stuff I had to talk to Candi about it. So I had called her at work and asked her if she had cheated on me with Becky and she denied it all. I told her that I was leaving and so she left work early and got there when I was packing all my stuff. She finally came out and told me and when she was telling me it was like it had not mattered what she had done. She kept saying that she didn't tell me cause she didn't want to hurt me and that she kept putting it in the back of her head and forgot about it all happening. Come to find out that night I had come home from work Becky was trying to get her to leave me and be with her. Candi had told her no but, she didn't tell her to leave or anything. Supposibly they didn't do anything that night at all and I to this day don't really know what happened that night. Cause they both told me two different stories. I told Candi that if it didn't mean anything or whatever that she wouldn't have kept doing it and she would have told me if she didn't want to hurt me. Instead she was going to hide it from me and act like nothing happened. I told her that I would have found out from someone about one of the times that something had happened cause people can't keep their mouths shut. I still don't understand how she thought her not telling me was not going to hurt me. I just don't understand and I probably never will but, I guess that is just something I am going to have to live with. They both told me two different things so I don't know. Needless to say I was with Candi and Becky off and on for about 7 months. Finally, I told Candi that I wanted to be with her and no one else cause I didn't want to throw away what we had for seven years. I mean since I was 13 that is all I knew. For two weeks that was great I stayed with her cause while all the shit was going on I had moved back home with my parents. I was cooking dinner one night and I made the remark to her that I wanted to move back in with her and go back to what we had before and she said that she would rather me not cause I was better off living with my parents. Well from that moment on till Halloween I just knew something was not right. I had got her house key so we could wait for her at the house till she got off work. Well, we decided to go some places and ran a little behind and when we got to the house Candi was sitting out front. She had another key to get in the house because I gave her mine back when I moved out so I did not understand that one. So that night Candi, my mom and dad, and I all went out to the club and Candi got plastered. She was crying and telling me and my mom that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me and that she didn't know what she would do with her life if she ever lost me for good. She could not keep her hands off of me and I had never seen Candi like this before. I stayed the night with her and she took me home that next day and then mysteriously she tells me that she has to leave and can't stay the night because she had to do something with work. I was so pissed off I didn't know what to do with my self. I had text messaged her and told her that I couldn't believe that she would just leave not tell my mom bye give me a kiss nothing. I told her that I hated her and the only reason I done that is because I was so mad at her. Four days went by and she never once called me or anything. So I finally got a hold of her and she told me that she had some feelings for some one else. It was this girl that works with her and I can't stand her. So I told Candi it was me or her and that if we split up that we would never have a chance to be together again. I cried didn't eat or sleep for about two weeks from the time she had left my house. My family and I were so confused and didn't understand I would call her and beg her to come back to me and my mom talked to her so maybe she could understand what was going on. But, nothing came out of it. To this day I am with Becky and Candi is with the girl that she had feeling for.
So that is the story about what happened between Candi and I. I am sure I left a lot out but, I get so depressed when I think about it. God I just want to cry I still have alot of feelings for Candi and Still love her a lot. I just know that I am happy now and hope that she is too. I honestly don't know if I could ever go back to Candi after everything that I went through. Although I put her through a lot of shit too but, she hurt me more than anyone ever could. I know who ever reads this is probably thinking if you couldn't be with Candi then how can you be with Becky the girl that all of this was over. I thought about that for the longest time and sometimes I still think about it but, I guess you can't help who you love right!!