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[sickbay - McCoy's surgery: open]

Jul 31, 2009 23:48

As soon as Uhura had alerted her that the away team was beaming back, Chapel had sent a message to M'Benga, knowing that the experienced doctor would be needed. He was trying to get some much-needed rest, after a shift and a half overseeing the sickbay before Chapel took over, but it wouldn't be the first time that either of them forced themselves ( Read more... )

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sehlatbear August 1 2009, 14:42:40 UTC

*Spock had spent hours wandering the Enterprise, using the time and the forward momentum to think his way through Scott's notes. He had a working theory regarding Leonard and Scott. It needed more testing. But he had also spent the time building a series of mental walls and barriers, moats around his fear and grief. The tenuous connection with his Leonard was in a cage - it could not escape him. He would have his control back, suppress emotion and discomfort until his logic preserved him.

He stood outside the Sickbay doors. He could feel McCoy's living presence, Kirk's relief. Spock bowed his head for a moment.*

original_fine August 1 2009, 15:32:36 UTC

Kirk had been attempting to keep himself busy. On the bridge, with paperwork--he'd even gone down to the near-empty gymnasium at one point, to attempt to push aside the turmoil of his mind, Spock's mind, with physical exertion. This wasn't his ship. That feeling was growing, the wonder of discovery fading slightly though it was more that homesickness had been layered over his natural adventerousness ( ... )

sehlatbear August 1 2009, 15:44:45 UTC

*spock raised his head. he had felt jimls approach and the gulf of longing within Spock was unbearable before he closed it off, blocked it behind yet another wall.*

He is alive and will stay that way. Kirk is relieved. I have not entered.

*Spock turns his face away. Jim is confused, lost feelling and Spock wants nothing more than to go to him but that would not be logical, it would only make it harder when Kirk decided the bond was too much and asked to break it.*

kirktastic August 1 2009, 15:53:16 UTC

Inside the sickbay, Kirk shifted as he felt Spock's presence. He wanted to run out there, burrow into the older man's arms like a child, and be terrified for a while. But he couldn't. His pride told him he couldn't, the parts of him that told him he had to act like the Captain told him he couldn't.

Even when he felt like he was being torn up inside. So he did what he always did, masking it in a mix of relief to simply know Bones was going to make it and the mask of the Captain.

sehlatbear August 1 2009, 16:07:33 UTC

*Spock can sense Kirk's awareness of his presence. This shadow bond....

He built more walls. It was not Spock's way to intrude. Where Kirk had felt a slight but constant hum in his mind, now there was a faint crackle of the link ruthlessly suppressed.

How long he could maintain this, Spock was unsure. But he must try, for the sake of logic.*

kirktastic August 1 2009, 16:19:22 UTC

The sudden cut of presence hurt. Kirk's eyes closed tightly for a moment, trying to remind himself that it was what he wanted. He didn't want to be unconsciously bonded to someone.

...That didn't make the sudden feeling of being alone any better. He wanted to rush in there and see for himself, with his own eyes, that Bones was alive. But for the moment, he could do nothing but wait.

sehlatbear August 1 2009, 16:27:35 UTC

*Kirk's own pain bounced back at him. Not cut then - the link still existed. But it was as though Spock were turning everything inward, suppressing everything until he was simply a mirror, protected by mirrors instead of giving in return.*

original_fine August 1 2009, 16:12:35 UTC

The flare of pain and loss and longing within Spock was acute, and sudden, and when it was suddenly removed Jim's mind stumbled over it ( ... )

sehlatbear August 1 2009, 16:34:45 UTC

*Spock has had no rest, nothing to eat, and by rights should still be seclusion with his mates. He has turned off everything possible but when Jim's hand is on Spock's arm, he cannot escape it, there is nowhere else inside to hide from his feelings. He retreats deeper, away from the confusion he sees from Jim - Jim who will surely reject him, will surely be to proud/brave/loving to say it until it happens. His t'hy'la, he cannot hide from them, cannot wear his mask of logic and control well enough.*

*Spock looks back to Jim, opens his mouth to speak. And then he collapses.*

original_fine August 1 2009, 16:43:45 UTC

Jim can feel him pull away, and that absence is if anything more acute than the loss of Bones. Because it is deliberate. And of course, Jim has no way of knowing why, or what Spock is thinking, or whether this is to protect Jim or protect Spock. He can't even know what he himself is projecting that makes Spock react this way. After what they have shared, it seems unwarranted ( ... )

rn_chapel August 1 2009, 18:09:05 UTC

Chapel's smile drops away again, tension and concern coming to the surface once more.

"Put him there," she says, gesturing at a free biobed. "I'll get M'Benga."

[[OOC: I've got a class to teach, so you all might want to use M'Benga NPC-style until I get back? (and I'm doing tense shifts all over the place too, original_fine, so it's not just you at least ;))]]

kirktastic August 1 2009, 18:13:25 UTC

Jim looked over as Kirk burst into the room and hissed through his teeth. He got off the biobed quickly and looked to the other-him. "Where is he?" He'd help get the Vulcan into sickbay.

original_fine August 1 2009, 19:50:46 UTC

Kirk nods at Jim and returns to Spock, expecting the man to follow. Which he does, and between the two of them they manage to arrange Spock on the biobed.

He schools himself to patience though it is not in his nature. The bond makes it even worse, his anxiety more difficult to contain and he waits for M'Benga to finish with another patient. They do not wait long, but Jim has to force his fingers to relax. He knows he cannot hurt Spock's arm by clutching it but the joints of his own hand are showing white. He glances at Jim, unsure what the kid knows, or what he's been through himself but grateful for his presence. He'll have to remember to tell him so, when he can think again.

"What wrong?" he demands of the doctor, his gaze intense and his manner equal parts captain and worried friend.

M'Benga can find nothing physically wrong with Spock apart from the lack of rest, fluids and nutrition. But Spock has pushed himself too far before, farther, without such drastic results. It makes Jim feel guilty, that he has neglected Spock when ( ... )

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