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i know you were doing the best you could in a hard situation. and i understand you need to find yourself. ill be here if you need me, and if you choose to be in contact again. And im doing my best to be understanding of the situation, and of how you must feel. youve still got a place in my heart, and it will be waiting for you when you choose to claim it. I love you liz, i have since that day in the rain, and i always will. Even though i didnt show it sometimes, and i let my issues get in the way. Ive dealt with them, and the only thing thats left now is me. The me that you fell in love with, the me that you said you wanted to be with. And all i need is for you to be you. Just come back your own person, thats the person i fell in love with, not what the tug of war that was set up between myself and your parents turned you into. I know that i love you, and i know that you love me, i feel it, even though i probably wont hear it from you again for a long time. And i miss you, not just being with you, but the you i fell in love with. Please think hard on what you want in life, and go for it. I want you to follow your dreams, and ill be by your side if you want, at a distance, or holding your hand. Wherever we both are, and whenever we meet up again. I will wait for you, i tried to see if there was anything else i wanted from being with someone, besides what you have, and i came up with the same answer every time. You have everything in you that i want, and i need. I love everything about YOU, even when youre sarcastic, i think youre cute when you are, and when you make those funny faces and wrinkle up your nose. Truth be told though....youre scary when youre angry, lol (j/k). I still love you though when youre angry with me, and if im angry with you. In fact this whole thing has made me realize one of the biggest things there is about love that most people dont grasp. Its being understanding of one another, no matter what. Even if you dont know why they are being like they are, and even if it hurts. It hurts right now, but thats not what matters to me so much as that i want you to be happy, and whole, and strong, and most of all, an individual. I want you to have your own mind. A girl who doesnt have her own mind, and lets everyone else tell her what to think isnt attractive to me, but someone who speaks her mind, is intelligent, and not afraid to stand up for what she believes in is EXTREMELY attractive to me. Thats whay i see in you, you are outspoken, intelligent, talented, smart (intelligent and smart are two different things), beautiful, loving, cute, and sweet. You are all those things and more. I want you to be that person i know you can be, and that person thats inside of you waiting to be found and brought out for the rest of the world to see. I dont care what anybody else says, or has said in the past about any reputation you might have, you are my angel, and you always will be, if you want to be. I love you, and i always will, and ill be waiting with open arms, an open mind, and an open heart.
P.S.--if you wanna post any more of your writing, i'd like to read it, and if you want post a picture of that dress you made i'd like to see it. because i know you have talent, and i know you can do anything you set your mind to. And yeah, you are definitely a hell of a lot better writer than me. And i still wear that ring of yours and look at your picture before i go to sleep, once i clean my room, im gonna frame that one prom picture of us and put it on my desk, plus i still carry that picture in my wallet, to remember how beautiful you are and i still saw your face in my dreams, even last night, i didnt sleep much, and im still not hungry for anything, but i still feel like youre here somehow, and i hope you still feel like im with you in some way. And i dont mean like a stalkerish, possessive way, lol. I mean like if you need me im there to talk to, even if youre just talking to air. lol, i even slipped up and called my sister liz today. My brain must be completely fried, or i must just miss you that much. I love you. oh yeah, and i dont just want you to love your family, your friends, and me, i want you to love yourself too. I want you to be able to love yourself for who you are. I love you liz, and i always will.
P.S.--if you wanna post any more of your writing, i'd like to read it, and if you want post a picture of that dress you made i'd like to see it. because i know you have talent, and i know you can do anything you set your mind to. And yeah, you are definitely a hell of a lot better writer than me. And i still wear that ring of yours and look at your picture before i go to sleep, once i clean my room, im gonna frame that one prom picture of us and put it on my desk, plus i still carry that picture in my wallet, to remember how beautiful you are and i still saw your face in my dreams, even last night, i didnt sleep much, and im still not hungry for anything, but i still feel like youre here somehow, and i hope you still feel like im with you in some way. And i dont mean like a stalkerish, possessive way, lol. I mean like if you need me im there to talk to, even if youre just talking to air. lol, i even slipped up and called my sister liz today. My brain must be completely fried, or i must just miss you that much. I love you. oh yeah, and i dont just want you to love your family, your friends, and me, i want you to love yourself too. I want you to be able to love yourself for who you are. I love you liz, and i always will.