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so a certain girl i love said she needs some time to figure some things out, and because i love her im gonna respect her on that, shes worth it. Shes worth waiting for, i just hope she still feels the same about me. Well good luck to her, and i wish i could help her, but it looks like this is the best way i can right now, by staying away. Damnit i need a cigarette right now, but i ran out last night. I swear ive been goin through about half a pack a day since this past saturday. I gotta find a better way to distract myself so i dont have to think. It hurts too much with some of the shit going on right now. Btw, to that girl out there, i dont blame you, and im not mad, and im trying my hardest to be understanding, as much as it hurts. I just hope you find what your looking for in yourself, and that you can look at me for who i am then, next time we meet, and not who i was. I love you, and i always will. I just hope to god that things get easier for her by me leaving her alone, this whole tug of war shit. And i hope she enjoys life too. If she ever needs me though, ill be here. Plus im gonna call her parents soon and apologize for having been in their house, when i know i wasnt supposed to. I should have just refused to come over when liz asked me, but i didnt wanna hurt her feelings. And i should have just respected their rules, becuase they're her parents, and i know they try to do what they think is best for her, even if neither of us agree with it. The funny thing is that now i think they were right in some way, because despite us trying to keep in contact, now this girl has said she needs time apart for herself. Im just hoping that this time is worth it to her, and that i still am through this. Either way, ill be waitin for her on the other side, because i really do love her, whether she believes it or not.