Good day actually

[rluna510]

Well today was actually and ok day. I woke up at 6 and drove around all day till like 5. I went down into san jose and then went up to oakland then went down into tracy and stopped at a couple of places to eat and to think and just to have time to myself. As u probably already know i've been kinda ehh lately about alot of things. But since today i had time to think and time alone and i think that did the trick. First of all the thing with johnelle is still tough. I mean i love her more then anything in this world and i care about her to much. But i got to thinking that the truth is she isn't really all that good for me. After all i did for her...trying to make he happy and feel loved...i get a knife stabbed through my heart cause of everything she has put me though. Iam trying to forget her and forget her and me never happpend...but i know that will always be in my heart...but the good thing is...is that i am almost completely over her. I mean shes happy witch i always wanted and thats a plus. So i think the whole thing with johnelle won't be so much longer. YAY!!! Then Kesley. I do love kelsey and her and me will always be friends but are past time wasn't the best. Things always happend and i thought that the best thing for us is just to be friends and thats all..not get at each others throughts and always fight. Friends will last longer the b/f and g/fs. So iam keeping it as that. As it goes with my parents...i really didn't think all to much about it but its comming along...i really need to talk to them and tell them everything thats been bugging me with them and etc. So that talk will be comming soon. So yeah. It seems things are good today and what really surprised me was when i was gone all day i had people im me and worry about me and stuff. That has never really happened before...i mean erin worried about me...kelsey worried about me...and of all people johnelle did. So eaither something is going on...or things have turned around. So i hope things are for the best and everything in my life will slow down and i can be happy for once. So idk what else to talk about right now...but tomorrow i'll add something if i have anything to add. So take care everything...bye bye for now.

P.S. can someone leave me a comment...no one does anymore... :(