Down Time
I noticed I haven't even talked to my parents since Sunday night. I've spent all week trying to catch up with work. I don't think I have spent less than 10 hours per day either here or at the schools for work purposes. The constant busy-ness keeps the last few weeks off my mind. but I have noticed that when I go to bed, and when I wake up, Charlie is who I think about. I could rage for days about the unfairness of it all, but, to whom, and what would it accomplish. Some Psych grad I have turned out to be...
Posting on Charlie's community this week helped. Amazing friends, he had.
Life is so full of things I feel like I need to do, I wonder, how in the hell can anyone ever think they are ready to take on the world? Did I actually complicate my life this much? I actually yearn for the times where there is silence, except for my thoughts. But then, what will I miss in the meantime?
Charlie, I am certain, didn't miss anything. He filled up his 27 years with friendship, love, laughter, and yes, pain. While I will be sad for quite a while at his leaving.....
Life insurance, mortgage, college funds, 401K's, that has become the crux of my current existence. Not saying I don't adore my wife and kids, but day to day living shouldn't cancel one for the other. As a well known starship captain often said, "There is never enough time."
Posting on Charlie's community this week helped. Amazing friends, he had.
Life is so full of things I feel like I need to do, I wonder, how in the hell can anyone ever think they are ready to take on the world? Did I actually complicate my life this much? I actually yearn for the times where there is silence, except for my thoughts. But then, what will I miss in the meantime?
Charlie, I am certain, didn't miss anything. He filled up his 27 years with friendship, love, laughter, and yes, pain. While I will be sad for quite a while at his leaving.....
Life insurance, mortgage, college funds, 401K's, that has become the crux of my current existence. Not saying I don't adore my wife and kids, but day to day living shouldn't cancel one for the other. As a well known starship captain often said, "There is never enough time."