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class was crazy today. i saw another murder scene and i'm thinking i cannot go into family law. it takes guts do deal with this shit, and guts may be something i do not possess.....
i really thought i was stronger than this, but i guess i am not.....i am finding it hard to separate my emotions in a job in which i cannot have emotions.....
all i am supposed to do is argue, but how can i argue a case i do not support?.....
then i thought about corporate law, but again i still would be ripping off every individual in the world. i do not want to take part in a world that is obsessed with multinational corporations and shit.
i'm supposed to be spending the rest of my life with this one job, but i cannot find the aspect of it that will make me feel like i am helping one individual. loopholes everywhere that i cannot deal with and that i find sickening. i really hope all attorneys are not like this because once again i will feel like the odd ball out.
safe to say i won't be able to sleep after today's class.....
i have no idea where to go from here.....
i really thought i was stronger than this, but i guess i am not.....i am finding it hard to separate my emotions in a job in which i cannot have emotions.....
all i am supposed to do is argue, but how can i argue a case i do not support?.....
then i thought about corporate law, but again i still would be ripping off every individual in the world. i do not want to take part in a world that is obsessed with multinational corporations and shit.
i'm supposed to be spending the rest of my life with this one job, but i cannot find the aspect of it that will make me feel like i am helping one individual. loopholes everywhere that i cannot deal with and that i find sickening. i really hope all attorneys are not like this because once again i will feel like the odd ball out.
safe to say i won't be able to sleep after today's class.....
i have no idea where to go from here.....