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So ... I'm not in as much of a bmmer mood tonight. Over course
I still don't like that I have to miss out on youth group 2 weeks
in a row ... not just cause I miss people, but cause it's always
my "pick-me-up" in the middle of my stressful weeks.
So ... over the course of the first couple months of school I have
come to the realization that I'm doing a less than exceptable job
of being a friend. Not only has nearly all of my time been consumed
by school, music, church, or work, but even in those rare spare
moments I do have, I am either so tired I don't want anyone, including
my friends, to bother me, or I'm so stressed that I complain constntly
about the crap in my life. So, now I realize what I'm doing, but I
have no idea how to change it. The answer everyone keeps telling me,
"Don't over-commit yourself." That seems like an irrelevant statement
to me. Over-committing to me would be commiting to things more than
are necessary. However, all of these things that are consuming my every
waking (and even non-waking) moments are an essential part of my life.
I have a huge, deep desire and passion for all of the things that I am
doing right now. Not only are they benefiting me now, but I think all
of them will be beneficial to my future. So, what is a girl to do when
she has no social life, but is unwilling to give up any of the aspects
of her life that are consuming her "social" time?
If anyone has answers to this mystery in my life, your input would be
of utmost importance to me!
I still don't like that I have to miss out on youth group 2 weeks
in a row ... not just cause I miss people, but cause it's always
my "pick-me-up" in the middle of my stressful weeks.
So ... over the course of the first couple months of school I have
come to the realization that I'm doing a less than exceptable job
of being a friend. Not only has nearly all of my time been consumed
by school, music, church, or work, but even in those rare spare
moments I do have, I am either so tired I don't want anyone, including
my friends, to bother me, or I'm so stressed that I complain constntly
about the crap in my life. So, now I realize what I'm doing, but I
have no idea how to change it. The answer everyone keeps telling me,
"Don't over-commit yourself." That seems like an irrelevant statement
to me. Over-committing to me would be commiting to things more than
are necessary. However, all of these things that are consuming my every
waking (and even non-waking) moments are an essential part of my life.
I have a huge, deep desire and passion for all of the things that I am
doing right now. Not only are they benefiting me now, but I think all
of them will be beneficial to my future. So, what is a girl to do when
she has no social life, but is unwilling to give up any of the aspects
of her life that are consuming her "social" time?
If anyone has answers to this mystery in my life, your input would be
of utmost importance to me!