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have you ever loathed a f-ing song so much that you just want to burn the damn music and never have to hear it again.....well i f-ing have...why the hell did gypsies have to come up with stupid songs taht IIIIIIIIII have to play ong teh piano. they all are evil....pure EVIL. i just can not get it right it sounds like crap and of course i HAVE to like it because my piano teach likes it thats what she told me...i have no choice i have to play it and i have to play it pretty damn well... BECAUSE SHE LIKES IT... i am going to be playing this song for months i just know it. MONTHS I TELL YOU!!!!
I ALSO F-ING WISH THAT MY AIM WOULD WORK AND TAHT I COULD ACTAULLY USE IT IT IS DRIVING ME CRAZY MY MOM KNOWS TAHT I HAVE BEEN USING IT AND YET SAYS NOTHING. what the hell dose she want me to do just blow up at her onw day because i just can't take it any more and i will just keep gettin g more up set about it.
but yet everyone keeps on telling me its because they love me sooo much....but hey i am sooooo not feeling the LOVE...all iget are material things "ok renee we will buy you this if you just shut up for a while and then when you want something else you can have that"..MONEY...sure buy stupid crap that i want now and wil be useless later but now when i need friends to talk to and a normal teenage years....NOOOO.. you are not allowed have that. LOVe i believe is over a ted. if everyone was friendly and just was open and gave everyone hugs and kisses and not like WOW i love you. the would would be better. i would be asign taht you care but not I OWN YOU BITCH DO WHAT I TELL YOU TO. RGGGGGHHHHHHH. nothing is ever right in my house. i can't win. i ruined yet another meal today because i had to open my mouth and sy something stupid and every one gets angry...easters coming so we are going to have to clean be it is going to be joyous having al the relitives come over for one damn meal and we have to go insane just trying to clean the house. why does it really matter it not like they've never seen a dirty house before!!
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I ALSO F-ING WISH THAT MY AIM WOULD WORK AND TAHT I COULD ACTAULLY USE IT IT IS DRIVING ME CRAZY MY MOM KNOWS TAHT I HAVE BEEN USING IT AND YET SAYS NOTHING. what the hell dose she want me to do just blow up at her onw day because i just can't take it any more and i will just keep gettin g more up set about it.
but yet everyone keeps on telling me its because they love me sooo much....but hey i am sooooo not feeling the LOVE...all iget are material things "ok renee we will buy you this if you just shut up for a while and then when you want something else you can have that"..MONEY...sure buy stupid crap that i want now and wil be useless later but now when i need friends to talk to and a normal teenage years....NOOOO.. you are not allowed have that. LOVe i believe is over a ted. if everyone was friendly and just was open and gave everyone hugs and kisses and not like WOW i love you. the would would be better. i would be asign taht you care but not I OWN YOU BITCH DO WHAT I TELL YOU TO. RGGGGGHHHHHHH. nothing is ever right in my house. i can't win. i ruined yet another meal today because i had to open my mouth and sy something stupid and every one gets angry...easters coming so we are going to have to clean be it is going to be joyous having al the relitives come over for one damn meal and we have to go insane just trying to clean the house. why does it really matter it not like they've never seen a dirty house before!!
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