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so yeah lifes been pretty crazy right now i have to actually do the grown up stuff like health insurance it sucks but i know its something i can do. justin and i have this weird thing going on and i dont really know what it is. i just dont know what i even want to do about relationships anymore. im trying to be friends with shane again but thats not working out he thinks im going to screw up his relationship with some new girl i dont know who she is but im not worried about us having any kind of relationship with him i just want to make sure that before he leaves that we have some sort of friendship. ive never had any good relationship with my x boyfriends except steve we get along now cause of justin and i really love justin i just dont know what to do because i know i love him and when hes around other girls i get really jealous but i dont know if i love him as much as i used to love someone else and its really strange for me i dont know. im a little angry right now because i got samantha a job with me at the tattoo parlor and shes doing really well but i went to send leighanne a text from her phone saying freak (because she calls me one all the time) but i didnt know how to do it cause she has a verizon service so i went to see if she had already sent a text to leighanne so i could just like reply or something and she had but it was saying she was going to grab stuff from work to pierce this other girl at home whos not old enough to get pierced. first of all she needs me there in case something goes wrong and second of all i cant believe she would go behind my back and do something like that after i already told her we couldnt pierce her unless her mother said it was okay and came down to the shop to sign the papers for her because shes a minor. i dont know i just dont know who to trust anymore its gotten so out of control. i almost lose my mind sometimes but im trying to hold onto some kind of sanity blah. i just dont know but i know im really tired and i have a big tattoo tomorrow. *sigh* sleepy time <33333 love everyone xoxoxoxox