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you know, breathing sounds good. and i haven't really gotten a chance to do that much while i've been home. and i leave tomorrow morning. aka this morning, as it is now the wee hours of tomorrow...today? anywho....so one of the things that i need for my job thingy is to prove that i am in fact an american, and i can't find my stupid goddamned passport anywhere, as it is the EASIEST of the options, and i'm not sure i can do one half of the other options. =\ i've literally gone through everyplace that i could have put something in the last year here at home.....and i can't find it. i am again thinking that my mother took it from me when we got back last summer.....only it wasn't in a file of hers (yeah, i know. files? but seriously, my old expired one was. if all else fails, i will find that one and bring it.), and it wasnt' in the afe-say, so i have NO idea where it could be. and in the meantime my mother will probably wake up and ask for the 13 billionth time...."do you need help packing?" and the answer will still be "NO." i really don't know why she thinks i'd want her help, mostly cause i don't really need someone rooting through my crap and saying "gosh, this pair of socks has a hole in it!" or "you're taking that?". cause if the sock has a hole? i'll throw it away when i try to put it on. and i'll take just about anything that i think i might need.
i think i may have just given up on the stupid passports....mostly cause um....i found my mothers. and mine wasn't there. and i found the stupid money belt thingy that my passport was in last summer....guess what, it's not there either. i effing hate my mother for this....cause i swear she had it, and if that's the case, then she lost it, and she doesn't even care. she thinks that i'm making shit up. but i'[m not. i may have managed to get the doc that i needed to not have the passport, and i have a photocopy of the inside....but god only knows if that's good enough.
i feel like i haven't stressed enough for this job yet, and that i'm going to fail at it when i get there. totally irrational fears, i'm sure....but it might not be.
so anywho. i'm mostly packed except for putting in my computer accessories...and that's a thing for the morning. i may take my shower tonight and then go to bed. or play some TF2. and then, at like 7 in the morning, i shall be off to the airport to go visit my dad....who will eventually drive me down to TX for the job thingy. and loan me his tv. which is awesome. cause there's a lot of summer shows this summer that i have to watch.
and the thing is that i mostly just want to go back to my apartment and be with the bf. i just want to live life the way it had been. is tehre anything wrong with that? i miss him. it's only been a little over a week. god life sucks sometimes. i hope that the rest of this summer goes well, and quick enough.
too much rambling and random complaining and etc. i'm gonna go.
i think i may have just given up on the stupid passports....mostly cause um....i found my mothers. and mine wasn't there. and i found the stupid money belt thingy that my passport was in last summer....guess what, it's not there either. i effing hate my mother for this....cause i swear she had it, and if that's the case, then she lost it, and she doesn't even care. she thinks that i'm making shit up. but i'[m not. i may have managed to get the doc that i needed to not have the passport, and i have a photocopy of the inside....but god only knows if that's good enough.
i feel like i haven't stressed enough for this job yet, and that i'm going to fail at it when i get there. totally irrational fears, i'm sure....but it might not be.
so anywho. i'm mostly packed except for putting in my computer accessories...and that's a thing for the morning. i may take my shower tonight and then go to bed. or play some TF2. and then, at like 7 in the morning, i shall be off to the airport to go visit my dad....who will eventually drive me down to TX for the job thingy. and loan me his tv. which is awesome. cause there's a lot of summer shows this summer that i have to watch.
and the thing is that i mostly just want to go back to my apartment and be with the bf. i just want to live life the way it had been. is tehre anything wrong with that? i miss him. it's only been a little over a week. god life sucks sometimes. i hope that the rest of this summer goes well, and quick enough.
too much rambling and random complaining and etc. i'm gonna go.