my mind
okay so bryson told me to write a livejournal entry that is just typing whats on my mind for ever and ever and he says it is his new addiction and great fun and relieving so what do i have to lose? i might as well give it a shot- sooo whats on my mind i dont know lets see how about people, people are very intersting to think about just the way we all interact here is my responce to brysons venting about what his friend dan was talking about, about love and guys being dicks and trying to act all sweet and romantic to a girl just go get action and not really meaning any of it, well from a girls perspective i say that it is impossible to find a genuinely honest to god guy that is romantic and says all of the right things and says tells us that we are special, beautiful, perfect, smart, funny, the one; the guy that opens doors for you, whispers in your ear, holds your hand, holds you when you cry, laughs with you, sings to you, dances with you, cooks for you, makes friends with your family, gives you a rose on a random day for no reason just to say i love you... i could go on for years about the perfect guy but it would be no use because im not sure he exists, i wish and hope that he does, not just for me but for all girls out there because i think we all deserve someone perfect, i swear i had a point to this when i started but i think i got off track fantacizing about boys. i cant stand how guys dont just straight up tell the truth from the beginning, i hate how guys can be so oblivious. here is a quote i read the other day that kinda sums it up "watch your thoughts, they become your words, watch your words, they become your actions, watch your actions, they become your habits, watch your habits, they become character, watch your character, it becomes your destiny" so guys- watch your words because they cause a girl to get attached and watch your actions because they are a million times stronger than the words and dont lie because someone will get hurt and if you are a good person even a little at all then you should care and want to prevent that from happening. sorry if that makes no sense i cant help it. what else is on my mind hmm chanyn is on my mind but i cant get into that now it is too sad, she is a baby with a cancerous brain tumor and her family cant afford the hospital bills so we are adopting her as our first sparrow (long story but through serve club / school we get sponsored for volunteering and they give money to her to help save her, it is amazing). okay im getting tired of this but yeah i'll admit bryson it was good to just sit and type and get some stuff off my chest, okay so final thoughts the world is just all going down hill like this new jack johnson song called good people- seriously, where'd all the good people go?, when are people going to realize gain some confidence and realize that everyone is beautiful and everyone deserves to be happy, see light in the little things, please please please just stop and smell the roses, it will do you good.