I am so old.

[rjkennedy]

All I wonder about now is what if...
What if I would have not done this or what if I would have done that. What if. What if. What if.
The more I think about it the more depressed I get.
The more I think about it the more I think I shouldn't.
Ive never been one to regret certain things but lately, its almost all I have been doing.
I really need my paycheck.
I really dont want to go to school anymore.
What if I pursued the medical field.
Med school seems more fun than law school now.
Wtf is my problem?
What if I would have never consumed my life with Sigma Chi or RukuS?
What if I went to every single class.
Id be super.
What fi I just didnt get involved in certain things.
Or if everyone had a plus or minus said on their head.
Plusses equal true friends while minuses equal stay away.
I hate how the world has certain boundaries and how your close knit life only exists here.
I wish boundaries didnt exist and all my life consisted of was traveling with my plusses.
Im so weird.
Anyways, I have pretty much decided that I hate to work and that I will truly never be happy until I retire.
I used to not understand how people just dont know what they want, but now I do.
What drives you?
What would you like to pursue?
In the end, how happy will you be with your work?
Honestly, does it even matter?
Is it all worth it?
I guess Im just low right now.
Maybe Ill go for a run.
Ya, Im gonna run.
Peace.