not feeling sorry for myself...

[rizzle127]

I have realized lately that i seem to be feeling sorry for myself. But what is the point. I have a good life that I have been blessed with. I have a great family ( ok well, they dont always seem great but they are), good friends that I can rely on, a roof over my head, getting an education, leading a Girl Scout troop, being in 2 other clubs that keep me busy, I love the most awesomest God ever!, and I know He will never leave me. Although, I have all these great things, there are always the negatives. But the one thing I learned is that i need to look more towards the positive than towards the negative. That is why I feel down most times and sometimes a little angry. It is like, I am angry at myself for not being the same as I was. It is different in the summer than it is in the fall and winter and spring when I am at school. School has changed me for good and for the bad. But you have to take the good with the bad. Today while at work orientation a few girls and I were reminiscing about last years fun times and memorable times and I realize that the kids with the handicaps have such a different look on life that sometimes I overlook since things seem to go wrong in my life. How selfish is that...to think about the things going on in my life when there are a million other things happening and changing in peoples lives that I dont even know. I jsut want this postivie attitude to keep me going forever. To make me feel beautiful as I am and I as a try to lose weight. But I need to realize that God made me beautiful the way I am and that I need to accept it as others do too. Just pray for me as I try to change this attitude...

Steve called me today and left a message...I am apprehensive to check the message though.