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I guess I should mention that dad and I have been getting along better lately- although he still snaps or criticizes me for really stupid reasons sometimes. I don't know how long it'll last- how long it'll take before he decides that I'm worthless enough to be picked on again. I really shouldn't say that. He does a lot for me- he does- and I'm pretty sure he loves me. Sometimes I wonder though, when he says certain things or does something. But what is love really- a lot of people seem to think they've experienced it but its my experience that most people have the emotional depth of a potato. Does love even exist? Wow I've never asked that I've just normally believed it. No.. I think I believe in it. I just don't think its as common as most people like to think. I don't think that many people really, truly experience it. Have I experienced it even really? I mean how can you call love precious if everyone claims to be "in" love or "to have loved" or "to love". We use such a strong word so loosely all the time it tends to destroy its deeper meaning doesn't it? I think love is actually what people might call 'unconditional love' because something so absolute and so strong can't just be held for one specific thing. Does that make sense? I'm not sure if I'm articulate enough to describe what I mean, so I'll just leave it at that. And really, I don't know if a human can unconditionally love (love everything no matter what not just one person/thing). So I'm back to square one. Maybe I don't believe in love either. Let's see now: loveless, Godless, now I just need to start molesting children and running naked through the park.
Oh yes, I don't know if I've mentioned it but I'm planning on dying my hair platinum- in order to dye it some unnatural color. It's not that I'm all "Yeah nonconformity I'm goth/emo/dumbass ya'll!" It's just that I'm bored with dying it 'natural' colors. I want something really different because I'm getting bored with how I look. SO does anyone have any suggestions? This includes streaking, color choice, combinations of colors.. etcetera.
Oh yes, I don't know if I've mentioned it but I'm planning on dying my hair platinum- in order to dye it some unnatural color. It's not that I'm all "Yeah nonconformity I'm goth/emo/dumbass ya'll!" It's just that I'm bored with dying it 'natural' colors. I want something really different because I'm getting bored with how I look. SO does anyone have any suggestions? This includes streaking, color choice, combinations of colors.. etcetera.