lost and delirious.lost in the sands of time
how perfectly those have always been my tag lines. i wish i could drag my head out of the past but i never seem to be able to.i can manage to look at the present but the future is impossible because i'm looking too far back.
and it's not like it's to yesterday. it's to years ago. 4 years ago. 6 years ago. 9...it's moments frozen in time in my memory.i wish i had a...pensieve like dumbledore. pull my memories out of my mind and stick them in a basin to look at later. maybe that would relieve some of it.
i miss people i shouldn't miss. miss times that in all actuality weren't that great.but i was so...high at the time that i can't help but yearn for them again. it's funny, it's when things are the most wrong in my life,in my head, that i feel that most free and high on life.
'you'll never been happy with simple'
if she only knew how right she was about that. if only -I- had known how right she was at the time, though i was angry at her for saying so. prob'ly because i knew deep down that she was right. and it still stands. the less complicated my life gets,the more i want to fuck it all up and go crazy.
and it's not like it's to yesterday. it's to years ago. 4 years ago. 6 years ago. 9...it's moments frozen in time in my memory.i wish i had a...pensieve like dumbledore. pull my memories out of my mind and stick them in a basin to look at later. maybe that would relieve some of it.
i miss people i shouldn't miss. miss times that in all actuality weren't that great.but i was so...high at the time that i can't help but yearn for them again. it's funny, it's when things are the most wrong in my life,in my head, that i feel that most free and high on life.
'you'll never been happy with simple'
if she only knew how right she was about that. if only -I- had known how right she was at the time, though i was angry at her for saying so. prob'ly because i knew deep down that she was right. and it still stands. the less complicated my life gets,the more i want to fuck it all up and go crazy.