Lets See How Long I Can Last
Because of my grounded factor, seeing human life while confined to the space of my own hell (The yellow house off Whitney, more precisely) is impossible and/or extremely difficult. However, I did have lunch with Ryan on Monday, on my break we met at Carl's Jr. and did the eating thing. I ended up being ten-fifteen minutes late to Newspaper because of it, but no one ever cares or notices. Speaking of Newspaper, creating a column photo is the hardest thing...ever. In the process of making one with Sara D. our executive photographer, I had to crawl over book cases and bathroom stalls. And in the heat of the moment almost dying or getting extremely soaked in bathroom sink water.
Anyway, Ryan has visited me twice at work so far. And I don't know if us meeting for lunch was an actual date or not. Confusing? yes. When class was over on Monday I went to my car and found a long stemmed red rose sticking out from my windshield wiper - from Ryan of course, he left a note with it saying it was because he made me late. No one has ever done anything like that for me before. I seriously have the best taste in men.
I still have to tell him that I don't want some title with him though. I just want to have fun right now. I honestly don't know what happened to my dating life in the last month. I did make it a priority of mine to improve my self confidence and I have been progressing, but I didn't think I'd see such a rapid change from it. I honestly don't know what I want right now from anyone here, I have a good idea of what I want in a man and no one within the state lines has those qualities. Well...that’s half wrong. But it's not going to happen and this guy confuses me like jelly and peanut butter in one jar. What the hell is with that anyway?
Cager stopped by last night and I 'didn't know he was coming over' so that dad would let him stay and keep me company. I really forgot how much I've missed him, we used to be such good friends and its great to see someone else who has changed as much as I have over the last two years. We used to be so immature.
According to Kelley, I'm a fatass. I hate him now.