Well.....
A few hours ago I was super panicked that I wouldn't get everything done in time for leaving to California, but then I set my mind to it and suddenly I'm finished packing and getting all the little odds and ends ready to make sure my trip goes as smoothly as possible.
I am really, really pumped again. Nervous and anxious, but pumped. Over the next few days Christian and I will be finding our first home together. An Apartment and not a house, true, but still. It'll be the first place we officially live together and I'm pretty excited about that. Especially since that place will be located in California, just north of LA... most likely in Van Nuys because although it's not the most glamorous and nice area in LA.... it looks like we can get a sizable two bedroom apartment for $1200-$1300 a month. And that's not too bad in my book. I'm really hoping for a two bedroom so that we can buy a small bed for the second bedroom for when friends come to visit. (Or maybe get us a new bed and move our old bed in there hehehe).
Seriously though, as stressful as the next month or two is going to be, it's probably going to be one of the most exciting periods of my entire life. Graduating from a very challenging school, moving across the country, starting a new career, and bringing a new relationship to the next step. All within a couple week period. I'd say that's pretty intense.
I've learned something about myself the last few weeks and that's that when I feel like I'm at my weakest is usually at times of extreme growth.... and usually at times when I'm actually being insanely strong. Funny how that is, isn't it?
Saying that, I know that lately sometimes I feel like I'm running around with my head cutt off and that I could break down from all the stress at any moment. But I am more organized than I have ever been before, I'm on top of things and that's fantastic. That's growth. Especially for me. I've never been so far out of my comfort zone for so long as I have the last year. And I survived and now I'm just crazy enough to do it all over again. And funny thing? I can't wait.
Oddly at peace,
Riz
I am really, really pumped again. Nervous and anxious, but pumped. Over the next few days Christian and I will be finding our first home together. An Apartment and not a house, true, but still. It'll be the first place we officially live together and I'm pretty excited about that. Especially since that place will be located in California, just north of LA... most likely in Van Nuys because although it's not the most glamorous and nice area in LA.... it looks like we can get a sizable two bedroom apartment for $1200-$1300 a month. And that's not too bad in my book. I'm really hoping for a two bedroom so that we can buy a small bed for the second bedroom for when friends come to visit. (Or maybe get us a new bed and move our old bed in there hehehe).
Seriously though, as stressful as the next month or two is going to be, it's probably going to be one of the most exciting periods of my entire life. Graduating from a very challenging school, moving across the country, starting a new career, and bringing a new relationship to the next step. All within a couple week period. I'd say that's pretty intense.
I've learned something about myself the last few weeks and that's that when I feel like I'm at my weakest is usually at times of extreme growth.... and usually at times when I'm actually being insanely strong. Funny how that is, isn't it?
Saying that, I know that lately sometimes I feel like I'm running around with my head cutt off and that I could break down from all the stress at any moment. But I am more organized than I have ever been before, I'm on top of things and that's fantastic. That's growth. Especially for me. I've never been so far out of my comfort zone for so long as I have the last year. And I survived and now I'm just crazy enough to do it all over again. And funny thing? I can't wait.
Oddly at peace,
Riz