Portrait of the Actress as a Young Brat
Acting, as a Mr. Tom Baker of Liverpool England once put it, is essentially "professional lying". When acting, you lie about everything and anything depending on the part you play. You can lie about your age. You can lie about your status, about your nationality, about your personality. You can lie about your hair color and the way you dress. You can lie about the time period you live in or your knowledge of things. How smart you are, where you studied, what your opinions and conspiracies of strawberry torte happen to be. When acting, you are not yourself, and yet... in so many ways you are, depending on the kind of acting you do. I personally am a stupendous liar. In one instance, I lied in a way that got my father into thinking I was a bad liar because I lied about lying about lying... but I really don't want to get reopen that grave, because it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth, but all the same it was quite a clever move on my part. Point being, I'm a good liar, so therefore I must be a good actor.
Now myself and my acting methodology... when I am assigned a part to play, I do not really BECOME the part, as is usually the preference with modern acting. Rather, the part becomes me. I'm not particularly good and truly becoming something I'm not, but I'm VERY good at being myself.
Let me back up and explain that little, okay?
My own personality, ego and character is quite ruthless. Like a weed, it devours everything beside it, and you really can't ignore it for very long. Yes, I confess, I have a large ego, but I don't try to hide that anymore. A certain friend of mine once said that "I possess the biggest ego he had ever seen; equal to, comprible to, and even surpassing that of his own."
And my beloved readers, this is the young man whom I'VE always envisioned possessing the biggest ego on Earth, but I shan't get into that. Drop it. Bury it. Done.
So anyway, I have the huge shining and unavoidable monster of a personality, and there are many layers to it, each possessing a character and ego of it's own. Depending on my mood or on my state of mind, I am able to project many different characters stemming from the same root: myself.
Now, this isn't to say that I have some brain ailment of sorts such as multiple-personality disorder or some such thing. No, nothing like that... well... that's somewhat of a lie... it's SOMETHING like that. It's like that... but in a sense that I have it under control. You know in the old cartoons where someone decides to split himself apart into seperate moods. Like Jimmy Neutron does once, into sad Jimmy, Evil Jimmy, Happy Jimmy, angry Jimmy, etc. It's like that.
There are many Beccas. Punk Becca, Victorian Becca, Dark Brittish Humor Becca, Teenage Angsty Becca, Beauty Pagent Becca, Voulenteer responsible Becca, Child Becca, Artist Becca, Goth Becca, White Trash Comic Relief Becca... the list goes on, and it's from these seperate and unique personalities that I can distill a good character for the role I play in a theater production. I bend my character to reflect an element of myself, and alter it slightly.
And that, dear readers, is how I act on the stage.
The mood I am In as of the present is "Actress Writing A Memoir Becca", which is probably brought on by the fact that I watched "Withnail and I" this afternoon, and still have it on the brain.
This stirs up another question... my personality gives the front and appearance of being strong and unique, but at the same time, my moods and mindsets seem to correlate to my surroundings. So perhaps all I'm doing is mirroring whatever I intake through my senses.
So perhaps I'm a good actress after all. Well... I DO have the certificate to prove it. ;)
Bene Nacht,
Becca
Now myself and my acting methodology... when I am assigned a part to play, I do not really BECOME the part, as is usually the preference with modern acting. Rather, the part becomes me. I'm not particularly good and truly becoming something I'm not, but I'm VERY good at being myself.
Let me back up and explain that little, okay?
My own personality, ego and character is quite ruthless. Like a weed, it devours everything beside it, and you really can't ignore it for very long. Yes, I confess, I have a large ego, but I don't try to hide that anymore. A certain friend of mine once said that "I possess the biggest ego he had ever seen; equal to, comprible to, and even surpassing that of his own."
And my beloved readers, this is the young man whom I'VE always envisioned possessing the biggest ego on Earth, but I shan't get into that. Drop it. Bury it. Done.
So anyway, I have the huge shining and unavoidable monster of a personality, and there are many layers to it, each possessing a character and ego of it's own. Depending on my mood or on my state of mind, I am able to project many different characters stemming from the same root: myself.
Now, this isn't to say that I have some brain ailment of sorts such as multiple-personality disorder or some such thing. No, nothing like that... well... that's somewhat of a lie... it's SOMETHING like that. It's like that... but in a sense that I have it under control. You know in the old cartoons where someone decides to split himself apart into seperate moods. Like Jimmy Neutron does once, into sad Jimmy, Evil Jimmy, Happy Jimmy, angry Jimmy, etc. It's like that.
There are many Beccas. Punk Becca, Victorian Becca, Dark Brittish Humor Becca, Teenage Angsty Becca, Beauty Pagent Becca, Voulenteer responsible Becca, Child Becca, Artist Becca, Goth Becca, White Trash Comic Relief Becca... the list goes on, and it's from these seperate and unique personalities that I can distill a good character for the role I play in a theater production. I bend my character to reflect an element of myself, and alter it slightly.
And that, dear readers, is how I act on the stage.
The mood I am In as of the present is "Actress Writing A Memoir Becca", which is probably brought on by the fact that I watched "Withnail and I" this afternoon, and still have it on the brain.
This stirs up another question... my personality gives the front and appearance of being strong and unique, but at the same time, my moods and mindsets seem to correlate to my surroundings. So perhaps all I'm doing is mirroring whatever I intake through my senses.
So perhaps I'm a good actress after all. Well... I DO have the certificate to prove it. ;)
Bene Nacht,
Becca