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In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here....
This song.....I listen to whenever I have someone close to me who is suffering. Someone close to me who will be near death. Cancer is the worst disease I have ever had the opportunity to see. It has already taken 5 close family members of mine. Soon....6.
It's back...and it's not going away this time. My dad called me on Thanksgiving Day when he got the news.
She was in remission. She was okay. She looked so beautiful. Because of her medical bills and not being able to work (Chemo destroyed her nerve endings in her feet so she was in constant pain), they decided to sell the house. they bought a motor home and moved to Florida. Last week she went to the hospital there wih extreme abdominal pain. I talked to her....she sounded great - tired - but great. She talked to her doctor in Michigan and he told her to come back to see him. My sister flew her....
She went into surgery on Thanksgiving. They found cancer all over in her abdomen. Too much to get. They suggest Chemo....again. But all that will do is tack on a little of time. I don't know what she will do. She isn't recovered from the surgery to make that decision. Either way.....it's going to kill her. My mother is going to die. No, not my real mom.....my mother. My mom, my rock. She may not be blood, but she is the best mother I have ever had. If it were not for her, I would not be the person I am today......
What is my dad going to do? I have to be strong for him....I have to be there for him. I have to go back...for a little while. Probably back to Grand Rapids. As soon as my dad tells me where she is going to be, I am flying back. I will be there for her until the day she is gone. Whenever she needs me. I have seen far too many people go to cancer....go too quickly. I can't chance missing her......
I just have to stay strong......again