i cant even save myself
so many developments in my life of late. i am recently single again. and its looking like i will end up as the crazy old cat lady. You know th old lady with 80 cats...all named jasmine. I havent posted so much on fb because some of my family reads it. But none of them have commented on my recent implosion. I guess they didnt guess what it means unlike the rest of the world.
So im still living here. Unsure about what the next move will be. Poitive or negative. Who can say. Sometimes i think im dealing and other times im only faking it. distracting my self any way i can. Trying not to provide a fertile ground for all the destructive tendancies i tend to fall back on.
Trying to decide what to do with the new year. Trying to figure out what i want out of life. Well i guess i always thought id be married with 2.5 kins and a picket fence by the time i was 30. But the big 3 0 is coming up and im not married, hell i dont even have any prospects in that direction, i have no kids and no fence...picket or othewise. Im bored at my job, umhappy with my living situation alot of the time and basically im falling to bits.
So i will posibly take up a recent offer. not of a boy or kids or anyone you know. But maybe it will help me. Or at least make me fake happyness better
So im still living here. Unsure about what the next move will be. Poitive or negative. Who can say. Sometimes i think im dealing and other times im only faking it. distracting my self any way i can. Trying not to provide a fertile ground for all the destructive tendancies i tend to fall back on.
Trying to decide what to do with the new year. Trying to figure out what i want out of life. Well i guess i always thought id be married with 2.5 kins and a picket fence by the time i was 30. But the big 3 0 is coming up and im not married, hell i dont even have any prospects in that direction, i have no kids and no fence...picket or othewise. Im bored at my job, umhappy with my living situation alot of the time and basically im falling to bits.
So i will posibly take up a recent offer. not of a boy or kids or anyone you know. But maybe it will help me. Or at least make me fake happyness better