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my mom's paying the part of my bill that isn't covered by loans and grants. my dad's buying me a laptop. my bike needs a new rear tire. i still have to get books. i need socks and underwear. i should probably buy a couple pair of pants. my car needs the tires rotated. i needs a few things for my dorm/body clean stuff. gas money. money. my dad will probably pay for it all.
i feel like such a drain. i feel bad that they're totally throwing money my way, to me and my future, even though i am really unsure and nervous about everything. literally thousands of dollars they’re spending on me this fall alone, not to mention the past couple years, and years to come. hell, all my life. i'm afraid to let them down. i don’t want all of this to amount to nothing.
i’m already off to a bad start, behind most people.. i say that, but i’m sure there are a lot of people in just my situation, and probably even worse. are there really people who get through school in four years? i’m only a sophomore right now credit wise. i’m transferring to a new school into a new major and nearly all of my classes are in my major. it’s so new and different.. i’m worried i won’t make it. there’s so much to worry about.
whatever.. life is so fucked. i’m trying not to care as much, or, i don’t know
i feel like such a drain. i feel bad that they're totally throwing money my way, to me and my future, even though i am really unsure and nervous about everything. literally thousands of dollars they’re spending on me this fall alone, not to mention the past couple years, and years to come. hell, all my life. i'm afraid to let them down. i don’t want all of this to amount to nothing.
i’m already off to a bad start, behind most people.. i say that, but i’m sure there are a lot of people in just my situation, and probably even worse. are there really people who get through school in four years? i’m only a sophomore right now credit wise. i’m transferring to a new school into a new major and nearly all of my classes are in my major. it’s so new and different.. i’m worried i won’t make it. there’s so much to worry about.
whatever.. life is so fucked. i’m trying not to care as much, or, i don’t know