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For the past few months, I have been trying to find myself, I guess you could say..I've been extremely busy trying to make it through the semester in one peice, averaging about 3 hours of sleep a night if I was lucky. I was basically told that if I didn't go to grad school, these past four years of my life would be worthless, but hey, i was feeling that way right from the start anyways..
I did my professional presentation for my wildlife management class, and got an e-mail from one of my previous professors who sat in to be a TA for his class, which is pretty cool cause he's one of the experts in the NE on white-tailed deer..with my luck, of course, I can't do it cause it won't fit into my schedule..
I'm barely home at the apartment because the situation between me and the bitchy roomate have gotten worse..
I don't like to come home because of the issues that have been going on within the family..i was only home for 2 days for thanksgiving, and am leaving this morning.
With events that have occured in the past few days, I am now more unsure and more confused then I was about things before..
I hate myself for giving up a relationship that I have been in for so long and have worked at for so long...but, I know that I did it for the right reasons..I can not help but think that if I go back to the one I love, that he's just going to hurt me again, and I do not think I am ready for it..as far is being friends with him goes...I don't know if I can do it..I don't know if I know how to be just friends with him...He is a good person, and he means well..my heart aches to be with him and I know that I truly love him, but I also know that it is too soon and I don't want to rush into things..i guess only time will tell..until then, I'm gonna try to get through life day by day...
I did my professional presentation for my wildlife management class, and got an e-mail from one of my previous professors who sat in to be a TA for his class, which is pretty cool cause he's one of the experts in the NE on white-tailed deer..with my luck, of course, I can't do it cause it won't fit into my schedule..
I'm barely home at the apartment because the situation between me and the bitchy roomate have gotten worse..
I don't like to come home because of the issues that have been going on within the family..i was only home for 2 days for thanksgiving, and am leaving this morning.
With events that have occured in the past few days, I am now more unsure and more confused then I was about things before..
I hate myself for giving up a relationship that I have been in for so long and have worked at for so long...but, I know that I did it for the right reasons..I can not help but think that if I go back to the one I love, that he's just going to hurt me again, and I do not think I am ready for it..as far is being friends with him goes...I don't know if I can do it..I don't know if I know how to be just friends with him...He is a good person, and he means well..my heart aches to be with him and I know that I truly love him, but I also know that it is too soon and I don't want to rush into things..i guess only time will tell..until then, I'm gonna try to get through life day by day...