GGGGGRRRRRAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is it. Here it is. She just called me at 1 o clock in the morning to tell me that she dosn't love this guy even though he wants her to she loves me. She claims that she is great with his kids and it is starting to make her think that she would want children some day. But not with this guy she would want them with me. She says that she was just running away from her feelings for me that is why she went out to see this guy and she was hoping that something could happen because they got along so well. But she just can't get over me. So she just wants me to try and think about all of this. WANTS ME TO TRY TO THINK ABOUT ALL OF THIS!!!!!! Oh I'm sure that it will be in the back of my mind. Gaaaaahhhhhhhh I can't even type right now. I'm never going to be able to get to sleep now. What the hell am I going to do about this. I still have so much real feelings for her. But god what kind of idiot would I be if I took her back???????????? A huge idiot!!!!!! I keep seeing that miril Vingi guy from the Matrix. "This woman will be the death of me"