*does impossible spin jump kick*
I missed school today to go to Eva's statement, just to be with her for moral support. Mom and I took her there, and she didn't come off looking to calm, which is understandable.
We went to Shoprite afterwards to get some lunch, but when I asked Eva what she wanted, she said she didn't want anything. By that time I had aready picked up some sandwitch to see if she wanted that one, and I guess I was annoyed, not because she didnt want anything, but because she didn't seem to take to kindly the fact that I wanted to be with her at the statement, and I was there waiting for her. She didn't even ask how I was.
Then when we checked out, Eva seemed to know that I was a little upset with her, and she said it was her period. I can understand what she's feeling completely; I get the worse cramps and feel so tired around the time of the month, and the cramps are so bad that I nearly puke because of them. So, I know that it isn't much pleasent for her either. But still. For some reason it felt like she was brushing me off today. And it hurt. And I don't want to be angry with her for this, because she had to give a statement and would've come out of it looking angry anyway. I don't want to blame her for anything, hell, I feel I don;t have a right to be angry with her either way, but I really hate it when you act like a jerk and you blame it on your period. It's dissapointing. Especially since Eva and I are supposed to be friends. Plus, I just wanted to spend time with her today.
And I know she just wanted to get home to rest, that's understandable as well, but I was mainly there for her for moral support; but it felt like I didnt matter to her.
When we got back home, she got in her car, and when I went inside the house after we said goodbye, I looked out the window, and (because it was snowing like hell when we left, and she left her car at our house) I saw her struggling to remove the ice from the front window and the side windows; there was not only snow on it, but ice under it, because it was raining as well, and it had frozen on the windsheild. So I got my ass out of the house and offered my help, which she gladly accepted. So I helped her de-ice her car, annoyed with her as I was. Just couldn't stand the look of her freezing in the cold trying to spend 45 minutes defrosting her car on her own. (also it was still blizzarding outside as well) She did need help if she wanted to go home and rest quickly. So I helped her.
Would be immature to say that it wouldve been nice if I just got a hug goodbye? Or is that just childish? I just don't know anymore. The one thing I do know is that this stupid stuff shouldn't hurt. It be able to have been brushed of so I can just go "Huh, whatever" and move on. But her attitude towards me today hurt, PMS and statement or no. And when she left, I suddenly felt guilty (and still do) about the fact that I was upset with her, because I felt I didn't have a right too, and it wasn't worth getting upset about.
Oh, and I still didn't give my statement today. They said we have to set up a time.
What I don't get is weather. It was 65 degrees yesterday, which is why I didnt update my LJ yesterday, and now its lowering to 20 degrees, and blizzarding out. INSANE. But it still should be warm or decent by April 1st, if we're getting days like yesterday every once in a while. Especially in winter. Also, I'm beginning to really get sick; I was feeling yucky in the head yesterday and now I think I'm coming down with the flu, so I took some tylanol. It worked; not miserable yet. =D but still feel a little crapy.
Hope everyone is doing good. If not, I'll pray for you =) and hope you will get through and great things will begin to happen.
We went to Shoprite afterwards to get some lunch, but when I asked Eva what she wanted, she said she didn't want anything. By that time I had aready picked up some sandwitch to see if she wanted that one, and I guess I was annoyed, not because she didnt want anything, but because she didn't seem to take to kindly the fact that I wanted to be with her at the statement, and I was there waiting for her. She didn't even ask how I was.
Then when we checked out, Eva seemed to know that I was a little upset with her, and she said it was her period. I can understand what she's feeling completely; I get the worse cramps and feel so tired around the time of the month, and the cramps are so bad that I nearly puke because of them. So, I know that it isn't much pleasent for her either. But still. For some reason it felt like she was brushing me off today. And it hurt. And I don't want to be angry with her for this, because she had to give a statement and would've come out of it looking angry anyway. I don't want to blame her for anything, hell, I feel I don;t have a right to be angry with her either way, but I really hate it when you act like a jerk and you blame it on your period. It's dissapointing. Especially since Eva and I are supposed to be friends. Plus, I just wanted to spend time with her today.
And I know she just wanted to get home to rest, that's understandable as well, but I was mainly there for her for moral support; but it felt like I didnt matter to her.
When we got back home, she got in her car, and when I went inside the house after we said goodbye, I looked out the window, and (because it was snowing like hell when we left, and she left her car at our house) I saw her struggling to remove the ice from the front window and the side windows; there was not only snow on it, but ice under it, because it was raining as well, and it had frozen on the windsheild. So I got my ass out of the house and offered my help, which she gladly accepted. So I helped her de-ice her car, annoyed with her as I was. Just couldn't stand the look of her freezing in the cold trying to spend 45 minutes defrosting her car on her own. (also it was still blizzarding outside as well) She did need help if she wanted to go home and rest quickly. So I helped her.
Would be immature to say that it wouldve been nice if I just got a hug goodbye? Or is that just childish? I just don't know anymore. The one thing I do know is that this stupid stuff shouldn't hurt. It be able to have been brushed of so I can just go "Huh, whatever" and move on. But her attitude towards me today hurt, PMS and statement or no. And when she left, I suddenly felt guilty (and still do) about the fact that I was upset with her, because I felt I didn't have a right too, and it wasn't worth getting upset about.
Oh, and I still didn't give my statement today. They said we have to set up a time.
What I don't get is weather. It was 65 degrees yesterday, which is why I didnt update my LJ yesterday, and now its lowering to 20 degrees, and blizzarding out. INSANE. But it still should be warm or decent by April 1st, if we're getting days like yesterday every once in a while. Especially in winter. Also, I'm beginning to really get sick; I was feeling yucky in the head yesterday and now I think I'm coming down with the flu, so I took some tylanol. It worked; not miserable yet. =D but still feel a little crapy.
Hope everyone is doing good. If not, I'll pray for you =) and hope you will get through and great things will begin to happen.