There was no other word for the way she was feeling right now. Granted, this did, in some ways, cover a great deal of emotions Nill was feeling at any given time-- typically, some form of terror was maintained throughout her day to day interactions no matter what was happening, but this--
This was different.
It was as if in the blink of an eye, everything she clung to and held dear had been taken away from her, everything comforting and easy to understand--
She'd stumbled slightly as the boat rocked under her feet, discovering beside her a small nook that could work as a makeshift bed.
Nill had no desire to sleep. She merely wanted to hide there, watch from her safe little corner to see if maybe the Priest wasn't around. Or Heine. Or even Naoto. Or Badou. Or anyone she knew and trusted, really.
Instead, the boat had seemingly had other plans for her and the journal she'd found in the nook, a great jolt upheaving her temporary safety and throwing her out onto the ground again, the journal landing beside her.
Picking it up again as if wanting to hold onto something that might be considered hers, she stood again on thin legs and straightened out the dress Priest had given her. Something else she didn't want to let go of in this bizarre place she didn't recognize. Not now, not ever.
Big, scared eyes blinked up at the man suddenly standing there, looking just as confused as she had to have.
Here, in this big, new, confusing, scary place, she wished, once again, for the first time in a long time, for the ability to speak.
So many questions. So many questions she'd probably be too afraid to ask.
So she just weakly fluttered her wings and blinked up at him, taking a tentative step back, ready to run-- somewhere, anywhere-- at any moment should he turn out to be any less confused and non-threatening than he looked.
There was no other word for the way she was feeling right now. Granted, this did, in some ways, cover a great deal of emotions Nill was feeling at any given time-- typically, some form of terror was maintained throughout her day to day interactions no matter what was happening, but this--
This was different.
It was as if in the blink of an eye, everything she clung to and held dear had been taken away from her, everything comforting and easy to understand--
She'd stumbled slightly as the boat rocked under her feet, discovering beside her a small nook that could work as a makeshift bed.
Nill had no desire to sleep. She merely wanted to hide there, watch from her safe little corner to see if maybe the Priest wasn't around. Or Heine. Or even Naoto. Or Badou. Or anyone she knew and trusted, really.
Instead, the boat had seemingly had other plans for her and the journal she'd found in the nook, a great jolt upheaving her temporary safety and throwing her out onto the ground again, the journal landing beside her.
Picking it up again as if wanting to hold onto something that might be considered hers, she stood again on thin legs and straightened out the dress Priest had given her. Something else she didn't want to let go of in this bizarre place she didn't recognize. Not now, not ever.
Big, scared eyes blinked up at the man suddenly standing there, looking just as confused as she had to have.
Here, in this big, new, confusing, scary place, she wished, once again, for the first time in a long time, for the ability to speak.
So many questions. So many questions she'd probably be too afraid to ask.
So she just weakly fluttered her wings and blinked up at him, taking a tentative step back, ready to run-- somewhere, anywhere-- at any moment should he turn out to be any less confused and non-threatening than he looked.
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