Venting
feeling low today, i worked 3 and a half hours on school work today. I am just being shamelessly pathetic and i recognize that i will be made fun of for this entry just because i use words like depressed instead emo. I have friends, i have lots of friends but realisticly if i stopped calling them would they still be as close to me as they are now? Or if i faded away from them would they just forget about me. I guess that seems unrealistic, but a passing thought is not enough to satisfy my selfish personality. I pour myself over EVERYONE, and i get nothing back. So then i shy away from them to experiment. See if they will call me, but they never do. But somehow whenever i call them again they assure me, that they have been thinking about calling me...so that begs the question why am i wasting my time? is there potential for relationships superior to the ones i am having now, friendship and otherwise. Or am i stuck with insincerity, indecision and inadequecy.
i really dont know why i am making this entry i think i would make fun of it like hell if it wasnt mine.
i really dont know why i am making this entry i think i would make fun of it like hell if it wasnt mine.