Thoughts spewed into this tiny journal.
Ok, the previous entry made no sense.
So let's try this again.....I'm changing and it's funny that I'm watching myself do it. I'm watching myself grow up. I've noticed a lot of things change in me, even just from last year and it's weird. I'm thinking about things and doing things that I wouldn't have two years ago, and I'm definitley acting different. If I look back on thing I've said or done in the past all I can say is "what an idiot". I've grown up so much in just a few years that I honestly thinkI'm a completely different person. And I think that's scary. It's scary because I never liked who I was as a kid and I'm glad I grew out of it, but I'm at a point now where I like who I am, and if when I change again I think I could lose it.
That's just it; I like everything the way it is now. People who are close to me and just life in general is good right now. I hate the fact that it will change from the way it is now. Everything fits for once and I'll lose it. Maybe that's what I'm scared of.
I'll lose him, and I don't want to. Because I think I've grown from him and with him and I don't want to lose that. I honestly just don't want to lose him.
Excuse my babbling, all.
So let's try this again.....I'm changing and it's funny that I'm watching myself do it. I'm watching myself grow up. I've noticed a lot of things change in me, even just from last year and it's weird. I'm thinking about things and doing things that I wouldn't have two years ago, and I'm definitley acting different. If I look back on thing I've said or done in the past all I can say is "what an idiot". I've grown up so much in just a few years that I honestly thinkI'm a completely different person. And I think that's scary. It's scary because I never liked who I was as a kid and I'm glad I grew out of it, but I'm at a point now where I like who I am, and if when I change again I think I could lose it.
That's just it; I like everything the way it is now. People who are close to me and just life in general is good right now. I hate the fact that it will change from the way it is now. Everything fits for once and I'll lose it. Maybe that's what I'm scared of.
I'll lose him, and I don't want to. Because I think I've grown from him and with him and I don't want to lose that. I honestly just don't want to lose him.
Excuse my babbling, all.