I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!!
I literally carry all the weight and problems of my family. Everyone happens to feel the need to unload the issues all at once, and it's tiring. Not to mention it's making me even more uncomfortable around my family than usual, since I know secrets about each one of them, that I'm not suppose to mention, or that I AM suppose to mention, just to get a reaction from one person for the anonymous other. It's ridiculous.
Along with this, my duty of "Make the world brighter once again for all" has stepped up to the next level, since everyone's emotions have now turned into more rage, and depression and crying and screaming. And I always hear it, whether it's in my ear via phonecall, or right in my face. I swear, everybody goes waaaay out of their way to bring the drama directly to me.
I honestly am more than willing to help someone in need or someone who is down, because I don't like seeing anyone unhappy. But when it comes to these people, I honestly don't care. It's stupid how they whisper behind each other's backs and scream for no reason and get in fights. My parents are divorced and their kids live in separate households......how much more divided can it get!?! I left my mom's house because of all of this crap, and now it's just WW3 all over the place. If it's so bad, they should be talking to each other, not dumping it all on me. What the hell am I expected to do, solve all their issues with each other? I want out of this mess.
** I think it's interesting how events that make me sad or frustrated cause me to be creative, like re designing shirts or taking pictures....maybe I'll wear this new shirt tomorrow.
Along with this, my duty of "Make the world brighter once again for all" has stepped up to the next level, since everyone's emotions have now turned into more rage, and depression and crying and screaming. And I always hear it, whether it's in my ear via phonecall, or right in my face. I swear, everybody goes waaaay out of their way to bring the drama directly to me.
I honestly am more than willing to help someone in need or someone who is down, because I don't like seeing anyone unhappy. But when it comes to these people, I honestly don't care. It's stupid how they whisper behind each other's backs and scream for no reason and get in fights. My parents are divorced and their kids live in separate households......how much more divided can it get!?! I left my mom's house because of all of this crap, and now it's just WW3 all over the place. If it's so bad, they should be talking to each other, not dumping it all on me. What the hell am I expected to do, solve all their issues with each other? I want out of this mess.
** I think it's interesting how events that make me sad or frustrated cause me to be creative, like re designing shirts or taking pictures....maybe I'll wear this new shirt tomorrow.