[ff] Oretachi no Scattered Memories (second piece/?)
Tittle : Oretachi no Scattered Memories (second piece/?)
Author : ritchuuki and lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairing : Sakuraiba
Genre : AU, Romance, Angst
Rating : NC 17
Beta : vinapple *otsukare sama deshita!!*
Disclaimer : Just own the plot XD
Summary :
Q : What’s harder than forgetting something precious to you?
A : Trying to remember after it has been forgotten…
It supposed to be easy, right? Actually Aiba didn’t understand why it felt so hard for him to do it. It was JUST forgetting about Sakurai Sho, a random customer he just knew currently. Currently was like… very currently. If it wasn’t forgetting then he could at least stop thinking about Sho, on the contrary the effect was pretty much the opposite. He couldn’t shrug out the man out of his head, like Sho had already contaminated every cell of his brain. What’s the point to have broken brain that couldn’t recall the past if it couldn’t erase someone’s presence that just happened,or not, because nothing happened between him and Sho.
He is married for Hell’s sake, Masaki! Get a grip!
Thank God nothing happened.
Thank God…
Because he didn’t want to get his hands into other’s honey cans. Really, he didn’t want to. But what to do if the honey can was walking under his nose every time, or every Saturday in his case. Maybe he needed more time, it was just yesterday he escorted Sho to his apartment anyway. But it was just yesterday he talked to Sho also. And the man already gave unbelievable effect to his head.
What about Sho that was stunning for him anyway… it wasn’t like he didn’t see any hot guys around, but Sho was somehow… different. He managed to arouse some tingling feelings Aiba didn’t understand. Sho was undeniable good looking, smart, firm, gentle and polite… But something else… Something that Sho happened to have and Aiba happened to not see that made he had such interest toward the man.
But for sure, he didn’t sexually frustrated…
It wasn’t about that for sure. Sho was hot and all and who didn’t want him but it wasn’t about that, maybe a bit but not fully. Aiba shook his head in disagreement with his own thought. That was very unwise of him to think someone’s husband that way, yes someone’s HUSBAND. At once he needed some bold and underline formats on his head.
“You are spacing out, Aiba-chan,” Ohno stated nonchalantly.
Aiba almost dropped the cup he was wiping as Ohno steadily caught his hand like he predicted Aiba would topple it over, “How was yesterday?”
And how Ohno could so easily asking the exact thing that Aiba thought at the moment would remain mystery. Because Ohno always did. He read everyone like open book, and stated their thoughts like it was nothing.
“Ah, I fetched him to his apartment…”
“Wow, you did?”
“What? No, no! I mean, yes I did, but he was having fever and couldn’t walk straight so…”
“Of course,” Ohno’s voice colored by a humor, that Aiba didn’t understand and knew Ohno, Aiba understood that the older didn’t want to share it with him, whatever it was. “So you like him?”
“What? Oh-chan!” Aiba dropped another cup but fortunately this time Ohno caught it and placed it neatly to the counter.
“Well, it doesn’t wrong, does it?”
Aiba shook his head, “Of course it doesn’t, it’s just… he is married.”
Uttered and accepted it made everything seemed worse for Aiba. He didn’t know which one is worse though, the fact that Sho had already married, or the other fact that he might like Sho a bit too much for his taste. Even more, maybe he already gave a bit attention for Sho before but they just talked once and it seemed a bit rushing for him to conclude that he likes Sho. But if he doesn’t then what is it?
“Oh, I think they live separately…”
“I know Oh-chan, I was just… I know I can’t like someone’s husband… Wait, what?”
“Sakurai-san, he was separated…”
Really, Aiba tried not to feel happy over the fact, “What kind of separation?”
Ohno smiled but he shrugged, “In a way that it isn’t public consumption anymore…”
For a second he felt his heart sank a little, “Does he live alone then?”
“I’m not sure, maybe?”
“Oh, God… this is bad…”
“What is bad?”
Aiba took off his apron and threw it to the nearby table, “I need to check on him Oh-chan, I will back in an hour, please?”
Ohno stared at him in confusion but he nodded nonetheless, “Sure, just make sure you are here when the shop open.”
Aiba nodded on his way to out the café. He ran through the street he passed last night, hurriedly, even bumped into a guy on his way out of the café. Sho’s apartment wasn’t that far from the café just to drag half conscious grow up man on that distance was too much. After 10 minutes running in full speed, Sho’s apartment building came into his view. He didn’t have time to see around last night because the chaos of Sho’s sudden ailing and his… broken heart. But really, he hated to use the broken heart term. It was too fast to like someone as fast as to feel broken heart toward him. The apartment he missed last night was quiet new and nice. It wasn’t like the high class apartment but it surely wouldn’t cost low. It was so Sho…
His heart skipped beat when he saw Sho’s doormat that he accidentally kicked when he entered the apartment was still piled in wrong shape on the wall nearby.
Sho wasn’t out from the apartment yet…
Oh shit!
“Sakurai-san!” Aiba pounded hard to the door, till the point he scared Sho’s neighbors would threw a pan for the nuisance he made. But nothing happened so he pounded even harder, “Sakurai-san!! Sakurai-san, are you home?!”
He remembered that he left the key inside Sho’s apartment, so he tried to turn the door knob, but nothing happened, the door still locked. It was either Sho locked it or it was automatic locking door, either way, it wasn’t a good state for him at the moment, furthermore for Sho.
“Sakurai-san!” desperately, almost broke into tears he pounded again and again but nothing happened. Oh God… Please keep him alive!
Aiba was ready to break the door when the thought came across his mind, the landlord, the spare key!
“Sakurai-san! I will get the spare key! Hang in there, Sakurai-san!!” Aiba yelled in desperation before he moved his feet in rush toward the stairs. But after three steps he heard the soft ‘click’ from Sho’s door, without thinking further he rushed back and found Sho was hanging desperately on the door frame, his face was pale and sweaty. Right after that man recognized Aiba was in front of his door, he cracked a smile on his lips. Aiba gladly relieved that the man he worried about now was still alive because in all the time he could only think the worst scenario condition. And when the man just smiled when he saw him, that was more than enough to make him happy.
Sincerely that was the gentlest smile Aiba had ever seen, those made Aiba’s chest felt a very peculiar feelings. He blushed as red as Sho’s feverish face... And yes, Aiba regretted that he left Sho last night. How could he leave this pathetic man because of his childish thought?
“Oh my God…” Aiba pushed himself through the small distance between the door and the frame as both his hands steadily hold on Sho’s back. The weird yet familiar heat lingered around Sho’s skins as he breathed heavily to Aiba’s neck, without needing to check it Aiba knew, the temperature did not seem to go down , yet became even higher.
“Are you alright? Can you hear me?” asked Aiba while he concentrated Sho’s body weight upon his shoulder. Soon Aiba dragged him back to his bedroom after Sho nodded to him. Aiba could tell that nobody coming into this house as he passed the room… Everything was exactly same as last night here. And Aiba felt guilty…
He called a doctor to come into the house to take a look at Sho. He felt responsible that he was the one that made his fever worsen. He starts to unbutton Sho’s sweaty yesterday t-shirt and change it into clean pajama after he wiped Sho’s sweaty body. Sho had been so weak, he breathed heavily grapping the air. Aiba felt very sad that he could not take a good care on him last night. Despite he was married, they were already being friend. Aiba should at least make sure that his condition would be better. Sho was very kind to him and he was his first friend made by himself. That supposed to be enough to Aiba.
“Sakurai-san…? I’m sorry I left you alone last night. I don’t know that you would be alone. I make soup for you, you haven’t eaten anything since yesterday. The doctor said that you must be too busy, and tired… You didn’t have proper meal, did you? You’ll be better soon. I am here…”
“Thanks… I am so sorry, I even burden you now…”
“No, you don’t… I am sorry, this was partly my fault, I was the one who left you... Now, open your mouth…” Aiba ordered as he fed the laying man.
After 10 minutes, the rice bowl in Aiba’s hand was empty. Aiba collected the dish and put in all again in the tray, he was going to wash it when Sho pulled his clothes to aware him, “Don’t go… Please… Don’t go again, don’t leave me alone…”
Aiba smiled. “I won’t go… I will go just to put this in the kitchen. I will be back soon, you know. I never know that you act spoiled when you were sick like this…”
“I need you…”
Sick people will never want to be alone… And that words of Sho’s had no different meaning at all, Aiba reminded himself, betraying his heartbeat.
“I know, I will be here, but I got to make some phone calls. Okay…?”
Surprisingly Sho was nodding obediently to him.
Aiba took his cell-phone after he back from kitchen. He called his boss. “Hello. This is Aiba. I’m so sorry Oh-chan… Unfortunately I can’t go back to café right now. May I exchange my day off…? I am really sorry Oh-chan, I don’t mind if I have to work overtime this week… Of course if you allow me this time… Please,” asked Aiba in living room.
“Is Sakurai-san alright?”
“His fever has not down yet… I think I cannot leave him alone again right now. I’m afraid his condition won’t be better if I do so…”
“Okay, I understand. I will ask somebody to cover you today. It is rare when you ask me something…” said the older man across phone.
“Really…? Thank you Oh-chan! I know I can rely on you!”
“No problem. Call me back if there’s something again…”
“Okay. Thank you!” Aiba hang up his call.
Aiba walked back to Sho’s room and found that he was fast asleep due the medicine effect. The younger positioned himself besides Sho and since he didn’t have anything to do he was just staring to Sho’s face. It was a bit creepy, he thought, but he couldn’t stare too much when Sho was awake so he really enjoyed that stolen moment fully. Despite his pale skin, Sho still looked amazingly good looking, even more when his expression was loose and relaxed. And Aiba just couldn’t stop looking at him…
Until he dazed off… to a dreamless slumber…
And woke up, for God knows how long, to Sho’s stare on him. He gasped and straight his back in unbelievable fast movement that made Sho bemused on him, “I’m sorry! Why didn’t you wake me up! I planned to take care of you but-”
“Relax… I like your sleeping face,” Sho smiled, almost innocently. Almost. Because now he grasped forward and patted Aiba’s head tenderly. But Sho’s action didn’t stop there he instead brushed his palm over Aiba’s cheek as his thumb traced the skin under it lightly.
Aiba wanted to back off, before everything was too late and he couldn’t handle the situation anymore. Before he burst off and just let Sho had his own way to him. This familiarity, this tenderness, he knew that he would not last long, and this was so wrong no matter Sho was separated or not.
He opened his mouth to say something, when Sho moved forward and kissed him. As much as his resistance in shock, Sho’s hands pulled him even closer. The older titled his head to make better access for himself to nip the other’s lips. Aiba tried to push the older hands away desperately when the other’s moved slightly just to make some spaces between their lips lock.
“This is so wrong Sakurai-san…”
Sho half lidded eyes stared at him, “In the way two guys kissed each other?”
“In the way that you are not in your mind at the moment and you still love your wife.”
“Who are you to judge about my feelings?”
“At least I’m not blind,” Aiba referred to Sho’s ring so desperately it hurts.
“You are…” Sho restrained Aiba’s movement again when he attacked the other’s lips again, now was getting impatience with his every move, “you can’t see me thoroughly…”
“I don’t want to be substitute…” Aiba whined in between the kiss, “It’ll be hurtful for your wife and I don’t want to be your toy to release your sexual frustration!”
Sho stopped, in a way that almost disappointed Aiba if only it wasn’t other person’s husband kissing him at the moment.
“You never be one.”
Simple, and maybe just a lie to make Aiba let the other gets into his pants… or heart, if he could wish a bit from him. But he couldn’t stop it anymore… Aiba still didn’t give any response when Sho groaned in frustration as he pulled Aiba even closer that now his body’s weight was all over Sho.
Aiba’s breath hitched when Sho got rid of his own clothes in unbelievable speed. Would they do it for real, like for real?? They barely know each other, mere strangers who just talked to each other yesterday and Aiba didn’t do this kind of thing with some random people. Nor he did it for at least 6 years after his university life, as for those black pages of his life he would love to un-count it.
It was so hard to reject Sho, although of course Aiba didn’t try his best for this, and half hearted rejection wouldn’t make this man backed off from him. The younger man gasped when Sho’s soft lips traced his neck, giving some butterfly kisses before sucking it lightly.
“Masaki…” his husky and needy call resounded inside Aiba’s brain, half of his heart wanted to respond, but this thing was so… so wrong. So terribly wrong. It also felt so wrong when Aiba loved how Sho spelled his name sexily, it was first time for Sho to call him by first name… and in such situation.
“Sa… Sakurai-san… I think I can’t do it…” he already put his last bit of sanity on the line while he was sure, if Sho continued he couldn’t just reject it further.
Sho pulled half of his body up while his lower half still pinned Aiba to the bed, the latter flustered to be seen by a pair of lustful eyes while he tried not to keep his eyes to Sho’s gaze. Failed miserably. His eyes wandered lower and found Sho’s slightly pale skin was wet because the sweat, it was glistening under the dim light. In normal situation, if they did everything in order like confession and dating first, Aiba would really love to lick it. His strong arms half supported his weight and locked Aiba’s face in between, Aiba couldn’t help but astonished to the other’s body, how could someone be so perfect? His veins were straining under his neck’s skin ended to a pair of strong collar bones. His shoulders were a bit sloping although it looked just perfect with his muscular arms. Even though his view was limited but Aiba could feel an obvious erection pressed his thigh lower there that made him wanted to run away, this was way too embarrassing.
Sho was staring at him with unreadable look but mostly, Aiba noticed it, Sho wants him. Right here, right now.
“It’s Sho.”
“Huh?”
“It’s Sho, Masaki.”
“Sho… Sho-san…”
“And don’t lie to me, you want it as well.”
Aiba had no time to answer as now Sho was sucking his nipple while his hand traveled down to the least piece of Aiba’s clothes. The younger whined helplessly as Sho jerked off the last cover of his body and threw it somewhere in the room. The cold room was contrast with Sho’s warm fingers that now wrapped around his shaft. Aiba wailed of the sensation and got a chuckle in response.
“You are very honest, aren’t you?”
Sho smiled, surprisingly looked amused more than mocking expression as he brushed his fingers gently to Aiba’s cheek. Without breaking the eye contact Sho reached for the drawer and took out a small bottle with him. Aiba left stared blankly to the ceiling when he felt something cold invaded his hole, the sensation that aroused him even more if it’s possible. At the same time he felt Sho’s fingers wrapped tightly around his base and the next moment it wrapped by the wet cavern of Sho’s mouth. Aiba threw his hands away, anywhere… anywhere to hang on from this heavenly sensation he just tasted. His hands ended to the pillow was he clutched on it like his life line, while Sho kept his speed on both Aiba’s front and back sides. Every cell of his body screamed for more whenever Sho’s tongue brushed over his sensitive part while his mouth keep bobbed up and down keep the speed steadily fast.
He almost hit it when, too fast for his taste, Sho freed him for some seconds before Aiba felt his body pressed close to his chest. Only later he noticed that he closed his eyes tightly when Sho brushed his fingers slowly over Aiba’s lips. He opened his eyes to find Sho was staring at him although his expression was again unreadable. The older closed their distance for a kiss and at the same time pushed inside Aiba’s tight hole. His cries were muffled between the sloppy kisses while the other kept on his penetration until he was fully in.
He felt so full and hot, because now something connected him with Sho. Without giving him much time to adjust Sho started to move, slowly at first and at some point he started to rammed in and out frantically, while his hand pumped Aiba’s neglected member in the same pace. Something build inside Aiba as now his mind was focusing to the pleasure Sho gave, he felt the familiar pressured around his abdomen and with a low grunt he came all over Sho’s hand. Somewhere that seemed far Sho yelped and the next moment Aiba felt something hot wetted his den.
He felt too tired to do anything not even to clean himself as Sho didn’t seem to mind at all. He instead threw himself beside Aiba, the darkness already drown him along with Sho’s uneven breath.
It might take hours or days for him to wake up as he lost the count of time. His body felt sore and swollen but the high after sex made them all forgotten. Aiba glanced to the clock and found out that it was 2 AM. He smiled and slowly traced his side with his hand but instead Sho who was he expecting to sleep beside him, he found the empty side. Alarmed he raised only to see Sho stared at him from the couch across the bed.
His lips formed a smile to ask if Sho is feeling better when Sho started to talk with a cold tone, “I’m sorry.”
“I never meant to, we weren’t supposed to… I’m sorry…” there was a long pause before Sho continued, “I still love my-”
Wife. I know it.
He rushed to pick his scattered clothes and run out from the room, he didn’t expect Sho to run after him, really, he didn’t. His heart shattered as he put his clothes on as fast as he could and barged out from the apartment. The sky was still so dark when a droplets of tears falling and dissolved to the brown soil.
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*author note :
lovu_lovu_aiba :
hello! Sorry for taking so long to finish chapter 2. But I hope you guys found it worth to read. Anyhow I'm surprisingly getting very busy lately, so I kinda being selfish and let ritchuuki continues this fanfic alone as I have taken indefinite hiatus from writing. As the word, indefinite, I dunno when will I back, or if I will back after all. Either way, it's for the best, I hope~
Please keep supporting and reading the continuation! Thanks and see you! :)
me :
Konnichiwa... And first, I have to say so much sorry for neglecting this fic so long T.T I supposed to feel more responsible. Thank you very much for Pi, she actually writes this whole chapter... I love u Pi. I hope you'll have your spare time for fandom activities very soon >< Also thank for dear Vinna, I can do nothing without your beta! *seriously* XD~ And I hope I can write down this fic till completed, I know I'm no-good in english but let me insist... so please continue to support me because I am nothing without your support. ^^ I will happily to have your comment. Thank again! Have a good weekend !! :D
previous piece~
Author : ritchuuki and lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairing : Sakuraiba
Genre : AU, Romance, Angst
Rating : NC 17
Beta : vinapple *otsukare sama deshita!!*
Disclaimer : Just own the plot XD
Summary :
Q : What’s harder than forgetting something precious to you?
A : Trying to remember after it has been forgotten…
It supposed to be easy, right? Actually Aiba didn’t understand why it felt so hard for him to do it. It was JUST forgetting about Sakurai Sho, a random customer he just knew currently. Currently was like… very currently. If it wasn’t forgetting then he could at least stop thinking about Sho, on the contrary the effect was pretty much the opposite. He couldn’t shrug out the man out of his head, like Sho had already contaminated every cell of his brain. What’s the point to have broken brain that couldn’t recall the past if it couldn’t erase someone’s presence that just happened,or not, because nothing happened between him and Sho.
He is married for Hell’s sake, Masaki! Get a grip!
Thank God nothing happened.
Thank God…
Because he didn’t want to get his hands into other’s honey cans. Really, he didn’t want to. But what to do if the honey can was walking under his nose every time, or every Saturday in his case. Maybe he needed more time, it was just yesterday he escorted Sho to his apartment anyway. But it was just yesterday he talked to Sho also. And the man already gave unbelievable effect to his head.
What about Sho that was stunning for him anyway… it wasn’t like he didn’t see any hot guys around, but Sho was somehow… different. He managed to arouse some tingling feelings Aiba didn’t understand. Sho was undeniable good looking, smart, firm, gentle and polite… But something else… Something that Sho happened to have and Aiba happened to not see that made he had such interest toward the man.
But for sure, he didn’t sexually frustrated…
It wasn’t about that for sure. Sho was hot and all and who didn’t want him but it wasn’t about that, maybe a bit but not fully. Aiba shook his head in disagreement with his own thought. That was very unwise of him to think someone’s husband that way, yes someone’s HUSBAND. At once he needed some bold and underline formats on his head.
“You are spacing out, Aiba-chan,” Ohno stated nonchalantly.
Aiba almost dropped the cup he was wiping as Ohno steadily caught his hand like he predicted Aiba would topple it over, “How was yesterday?”
And how Ohno could so easily asking the exact thing that Aiba thought at the moment would remain mystery. Because Ohno always did. He read everyone like open book, and stated their thoughts like it was nothing.
“Ah, I fetched him to his apartment…”
“Wow, you did?”
“What? No, no! I mean, yes I did, but he was having fever and couldn’t walk straight so…”
“Of course,” Ohno’s voice colored by a humor, that Aiba didn’t understand and knew Ohno, Aiba understood that the older didn’t want to share it with him, whatever it was. “So you like him?”
“What? Oh-chan!” Aiba dropped another cup but fortunately this time Ohno caught it and placed it neatly to the counter.
“Well, it doesn’t wrong, does it?”
Aiba shook his head, “Of course it doesn’t, it’s just… he is married.”
Uttered and accepted it made everything seemed worse for Aiba. He didn’t know which one is worse though, the fact that Sho had already married, or the other fact that he might like Sho a bit too much for his taste. Even more, maybe he already gave a bit attention for Sho before but they just talked once and it seemed a bit rushing for him to conclude that he likes Sho. But if he doesn’t then what is it?
“Oh, I think they live separately…”
“I know Oh-chan, I was just… I know I can’t like someone’s husband… Wait, what?”
“Sakurai-san, he was separated…”
Really, Aiba tried not to feel happy over the fact, “What kind of separation?”
Ohno smiled but he shrugged, “In a way that it isn’t public consumption anymore…”
For a second he felt his heart sank a little, “Does he live alone then?”
“I’m not sure, maybe?”
“Oh, God… this is bad…”
“What is bad?”
Aiba took off his apron and threw it to the nearby table, “I need to check on him Oh-chan, I will back in an hour, please?”
Ohno stared at him in confusion but he nodded nonetheless, “Sure, just make sure you are here when the shop open.”
Aiba nodded on his way to out the café. He ran through the street he passed last night, hurriedly, even bumped into a guy on his way out of the café. Sho’s apartment wasn’t that far from the café just to drag half conscious grow up man on that distance was too much. After 10 minutes running in full speed, Sho’s apartment building came into his view. He didn’t have time to see around last night because the chaos of Sho’s sudden ailing and his… broken heart. But really, he hated to use the broken heart term. It was too fast to like someone as fast as to feel broken heart toward him. The apartment he missed last night was quiet new and nice. It wasn’t like the high class apartment but it surely wouldn’t cost low. It was so Sho…
His heart skipped beat when he saw Sho’s doormat that he accidentally kicked when he entered the apartment was still piled in wrong shape on the wall nearby.
Sho wasn’t out from the apartment yet…
Oh shit!
“Sakurai-san!” Aiba pounded hard to the door, till the point he scared Sho’s neighbors would threw a pan for the nuisance he made. But nothing happened so he pounded even harder, “Sakurai-san!! Sakurai-san, are you home?!”
He remembered that he left the key inside Sho’s apartment, so he tried to turn the door knob, but nothing happened, the door still locked. It was either Sho locked it or it was automatic locking door, either way, it wasn’t a good state for him at the moment, furthermore for Sho.
“Sakurai-san!” desperately, almost broke into tears he pounded again and again but nothing happened. Oh God… Please keep him alive!
Aiba was ready to break the door when the thought came across his mind, the landlord, the spare key!
“Sakurai-san! I will get the spare key! Hang in there, Sakurai-san!!” Aiba yelled in desperation before he moved his feet in rush toward the stairs. But after three steps he heard the soft ‘click’ from Sho’s door, without thinking further he rushed back and found Sho was hanging desperately on the door frame, his face was pale and sweaty. Right after that man recognized Aiba was in front of his door, he cracked a smile on his lips. Aiba gladly relieved that the man he worried about now was still alive because in all the time he could only think the worst scenario condition. And when the man just smiled when he saw him, that was more than enough to make him happy.
Sincerely that was the gentlest smile Aiba had ever seen, those made Aiba’s chest felt a very peculiar feelings. He blushed as red as Sho’s feverish face... And yes, Aiba regretted that he left Sho last night. How could he leave this pathetic man because of his childish thought?
“Oh my God…” Aiba pushed himself through the small distance between the door and the frame as both his hands steadily hold on Sho’s back. The weird yet familiar heat lingered around Sho’s skins as he breathed heavily to Aiba’s neck, without needing to check it Aiba knew, the temperature did not seem to go down , yet became even higher.
“Are you alright? Can you hear me?” asked Aiba while he concentrated Sho’s body weight upon his shoulder. Soon Aiba dragged him back to his bedroom after Sho nodded to him. Aiba could tell that nobody coming into this house as he passed the room… Everything was exactly same as last night here. And Aiba felt guilty…
He called a doctor to come into the house to take a look at Sho. He felt responsible that he was the one that made his fever worsen. He starts to unbutton Sho’s sweaty yesterday t-shirt and change it into clean pajama after he wiped Sho’s sweaty body. Sho had been so weak, he breathed heavily grapping the air. Aiba felt very sad that he could not take a good care on him last night. Despite he was married, they were already being friend. Aiba should at least make sure that his condition would be better. Sho was very kind to him and he was his first friend made by himself. That supposed to be enough to Aiba.
“Sakurai-san…? I’m sorry I left you alone last night. I don’t know that you would be alone. I make soup for you, you haven’t eaten anything since yesterday. The doctor said that you must be too busy, and tired… You didn’t have proper meal, did you? You’ll be better soon. I am here…”
“Thanks… I am so sorry, I even burden you now…”
“No, you don’t… I am sorry, this was partly my fault, I was the one who left you... Now, open your mouth…” Aiba ordered as he fed the laying man.
After 10 minutes, the rice bowl in Aiba’s hand was empty. Aiba collected the dish and put in all again in the tray, he was going to wash it when Sho pulled his clothes to aware him, “Don’t go… Please… Don’t go again, don’t leave me alone…”
Aiba smiled. “I won’t go… I will go just to put this in the kitchen. I will be back soon, you know. I never know that you act spoiled when you were sick like this…”
“I need you…”
Sick people will never want to be alone… And that words of Sho’s had no different meaning at all, Aiba reminded himself, betraying his heartbeat.
“I know, I will be here, but I got to make some phone calls. Okay…?”
Surprisingly Sho was nodding obediently to him.
Aiba took his cell-phone after he back from kitchen. He called his boss. “Hello. This is Aiba. I’m so sorry Oh-chan… Unfortunately I can’t go back to café right now. May I exchange my day off…? I am really sorry Oh-chan, I don’t mind if I have to work overtime this week… Of course if you allow me this time… Please,” asked Aiba in living room.
“Is Sakurai-san alright?”
“His fever has not down yet… I think I cannot leave him alone again right now. I’m afraid his condition won’t be better if I do so…”
“Okay, I understand. I will ask somebody to cover you today. It is rare when you ask me something…” said the older man across phone.
“Really…? Thank you Oh-chan! I know I can rely on you!”
“No problem. Call me back if there’s something again…”
“Okay. Thank you!” Aiba hang up his call.
Aiba walked back to Sho’s room and found that he was fast asleep due the medicine effect. The younger positioned himself besides Sho and since he didn’t have anything to do he was just staring to Sho’s face. It was a bit creepy, he thought, but he couldn’t stare too much when Sho was awake so he really enjoyed that stolen moment fully. Despite his pale skin, Sho still looked amazingly good looking, even more when his expression was loose and relaxed. And Aiba just couldn’t stop looking at him…
Until he dazed off… to a dreamless slumber…
And woke up, for God knows how long, to Sho’s stare on him. He gasped and straight his back in unbelievable fast movement that made Sho bemused on him, “I’m sorry! Why didn’t you wake me up! I planned to take care of you but-”
“Relax… I like your sleeping face,” Sho smiled, almost innocently. Almost. Because now he grasped forward and patted Aiba’s head tenderly. But Sho’s action didn’t stop there he instead brushed his palm over Aiba’s cheek as his thumb traced the skin under it lightly.
Aiba wanted to back off, before everything was too late and he couldn’t handle the situation anymore. Before he burst off and just let Sho had his own way to him. This familiarity, this tenderness, he knew that he would not last long, and this was so wrong no matter Sho was separated or not.
He opened his mouth to say something, when Sho moved forward and kissed him. As much as his resistance in shock, Sho’s hands pulled him even closer. The older titled his head to make better access for himself to nip the other’s lips. Aiba tried to push the older hands away desperately when the other’s moved slightly just to make some spaces between their lips lock.
“This is so wrong Sakurai-san…”
Sho half lidded eyes stared at him, “In the way two guys kissed each other?”
“In the way that you are not in your mind at the moment and you still love your wife.”
“Who are you to judge about my feelings?”
“At least I’m not blind,” Aiba referred to Sho’s ring so desperately it hurts.
“You are…” Sho restrained Aiba’s movement again when he attacked the other’s lips again, now was getting impatience with his every move, “you can’t see me thoroughly…”
“I don’t want to be substitute…” Aiba whined in between the kiss, “It’ll be hurtful for your wife and I don’t want to be your toy to release your sexual frustration!”
Sho stopped, in a way that almost disappointed Aiba if only it wasn’t other person’s husband kissing him at the moment.
“You never be one.”
Simple, and maybe just a lie to make Aiba let the other gets into his pants… or heart, if he could wish a bit from him. But he couldn’t stop it anymore… Aiba still didn’t give any response when Sho groaned in frustration as he pulled Aiba even closer that now his body’s weight was all over Sho.
Aiba’s breath hitched when Sho got rid of his own clothes in unbelievable speed. Would they do it for real, like for real?? They barely know each other, mere strangers who just talked to each other yesterday and Aiba didn’t do this kind of thing with some random people. Nor he did it for at least 6 years after his university life, as for those black pages of his life he would love to un-count it.
It was so hard to reject Sho, although of course Aiba didn’t try his best for this, and half hearted rejection wouldn’t make this man backed off from him. The younger man gasped when Sho’s soft lips traced his neck, giving some butterfly kisses before sucking it lightly.
“Masaki…” his husky and needy call resounded inside Aiba’s brain, half of his heart wanted to respond, but this thing was so… so wrong. So terribly wrong. It also felt so wrong when Aiba loved how Sho spelled his name sexily, it was first time for Sho to call him by first name… and in such situation.
“Sa… Sakurai-san… I think I can’t do it…” he already put his last bit of sanity on the line while he was sure, if Sho continued he couldn’t just reject it further.
Sho pulled half of his body up while his lower half still pinned Aiba to the bed, the latter flustered to be seen by a pair of lustful eyes while he tried not to keep his eyes to Sho’s gaze. Failed miserably. His eyes wandered lower and found Sho’s slightly pale skin was wet because the sweat, it was glistening under the dim light. In normal situation, if they did everything in order like confession and dating first, Aiba would really love to lick it. His strong arms half supported his weight and locked Aiba’s face in between, Aiba couldn’t help but astonished to the other’s body, how could someone be so perfect? His veins were straining under his neck’s skin ended to a pair of strong collar bones. His shoulders were a bit sloping although it looked just perfect with his muscular arms. Even though his view was limited but Aiba could feel an obvious erection pressed his thigh lower there that made him wanted to run away, this was way too embarrassing.
Sho was staring at him with unreadable look but mostly, Aiba noticed it, Sho wants him. Right here, right now.
“It’s Sho.”
“Huh?”
“It’s Sho, Masaki.”
“Sho… Sho-san…”
“And don’t lie to me, you want it as well.”
Aiba had no time to answer as now Sho was sucking his nipple while his hand traveled down to the least piece of Aiba’s clothes. The younger whined helplessly as Sho jerked off the last cover of his body and threw it somewhere in the room. The cold room was contrast with Sho’s warm fingers that now wrapped around his shaft. Aiba wailed of the sensation and got a chuckle in response.
“You are very honest, aren’t you?”
Sho smiled, surprisingly looked amused more than mocking expression as he brushed his fingers gently to Aiba’s cheek. Without breaking the eye contact Sho reached for the drawer and took out a small bottle with him. Aiba left stared blankly to the ceiling when he felt something cold invaded his hole, the sensation that aroused him even more if it’s possible. At the same time he felt Sho’s fingers wrapped tightly around his base and the next moment it wrapped by the wet cavern of Sho’s mouth. Aiba threw his hands away, anywhere… anywhere to hang on from this heavenly sensation he just tasted. His hands ended to the pillow was he clutched on it like his life line, while Sho kept his speed on both Aiba’s front and back sides. Every cell of his body screamed for more whenever Sho’s tongue brushed over his sensitive part while his mouth keep bobbed up and down keep the speed steadily fast.
He almost hit it when, too fast for his taste, Sho freed him for some seconds before Aiba felt his body pressed close to his chest. Only later he noticed that he closed his eyes tightly when Sho brushed his fingers slowly over Aiba’s lips. He opened his eyes to find Sho was staring at him although his expression was again unreadable. The older closed their distance for a kiss and at the same time pushed inside Aiba’s tight hole. His cries were muffled between the sloppy kisses while the other kept on his penetration until he was fully in.
He felt so full and hot, because now something connected him with Sho. Without giving him much time to adjust Sho started to move, slowly at first and at some point he started to rammed in and out frantically, while his hand pumped Aiba’s neglected member in the same pace. Something build inside Aiba as now his mind was focusing to the pleasure Sho gave, he felt the familiar pressured around his abdomen and with a low grunt he came all over Sho’s hand. Somewhere that seemed far Sho yelped and the next moment Aiba felt something hot wetted his den.
He felt too tired to do anything not even to clean himself as Sho didn’t seem to mind at all. He instead threw himself beside Aiba, the darkness already drown him along with Sho’s uneven breath.
It might take hours or days for him to wake up as he lost the count of time. His body felt sore and swollen but the high after sex made them all forgotten. Aiba glanced to the clock and found out that it was 2 AM. He smiled and slowly traced his side with his hand but instead Sho who was he expecting to sleep beside him, he found the empty side. Alarmed he raised only to see Sho stared at him from the couch across the bed.
His lips formed a smile to ask if Sho is feeling better when Sho started to talk with a cold tone, “I’m sorry.”
“I never meant to, we weren’t supposed to… I’m sorry…” there was a long pause before Sho continued, “I still love my-”
Wife. I know it.
He rushed to pick his scattered clothes and run out from the room, he didn’t expect Sho to run after him, really, he didn’t. His heart shattered as he put his clothes on as fast as he could and barged out from the apartment. The sky was still so dark when a droplets of tears falling and dissolved to the brown soil.
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*author note :
lovu_lovu_aiba :
hello! Sorry for taking so long to finish chapter 2. But I hope you guys found it worth to read. Anyhow I'm surprisingly getting very busy lately, so I kinda being selfish and let ritchuuki continues this fanfic alone as I have taken indefinite hiatus from writing. As the word, indefinite, I dunno when will I back, or if I will back after all. Either way, it's for the best, I hope~
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me :
Konnichiwa... And first, I have to say so much sorry for neglecting this fic so long T.T I supposed to feel more responsible. Thank you very much for Pi, she actually writes this whole chapter... I love u Pi. I hope you'll have your spare time for fandom activities very soon >< Also thank for dear Vinna, I can do nothing without your beta! *seriously* XD~ And I hope I can write down this fic till completed, I know I'm no-good in english but let me insist... so please continue to support me because I am nothing without your support. ^^ I will happily to have your comment. Thank again! Have a good weekend !! :D
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