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So, when I was waiting for MEDIA to meet me at BackBooth, I wandered into Matador. I sat down at one of the tables in the dark, and just nursed a beer. This lesbian, named "Kelly" came up to me and asked me if I wanted to join her and her friend. I told her no, but we chatted for a second or two, and she got upset that she couldn't get a straight answer outta me, and told me that I reminded her of Natalie Portman's character. I told her I hadn't seen it, but read the synopsis. Oddly enough, it was just on cable and I watched it... I thought it was an awesome movie! But, I would prolly align myself somewhere between both her, and the main character.
I just checked the movie on IMDB, and noticed the main character, wrote, directed and starred in the movie. Heh, explains some of the awkward acting moments.
Anyway, dunno my plans for this weekend, prolly just gonna try to keep low-key. But, I can't remember if I'm supposed to meet up with Zach, cause he told me he's upset that I keep missing his parties, that he never tells me about... And, I didn't put it in my phone, but I thought he said he was having an end of the semester party this weekend, and a holiday party next weekend... But, I only have a note for him for next weekend... I'll just ask our mutual friend at work.
I wanna go watch Narnia, I've been asked to go, but my work schedule is always shitty, so it's either a midnight showing, or wait until Sunday.
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I've always had a difficult time falling asleep, I usually lie still for a couple hours just trying to let my mind cool down, until I can pass out. But, the couple times in the recent past I've been on someone else's bed with at least one other person, I've fallen asleep with relative ease. Which has led me to more thinking at night, about just calling someone up to ask if I could just come over and huddle up with them, so I can get a good night's sleep.
But, I don't think I know anyone well enough, or I would feel like I'm using someone, to call around and ask if anyone would mind. But, most of all, I hate myself for feeling weak.
Bleh, I don't know what to do. I just need someone to hold me down and tell me everything is fine.
I think most of my inabilities to cope with my feelings, stems from my strict catholic upbringing of, "if it feels good it's bad for you." I was brought up being praised for the more restraint that I showed toward things I deserved. Humility was my greatest virtue, and I've never been able to find a balance between what I deserve now, and what my background tells me I have to refuse.
*Sigh* I love this song, gonna get ready for work and start it over ^_^
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EDIT:
MEDIA and I went to the Dollar theater, and watched "DOOM." My blind hatred for Dwayne Johnson, made it impossible for me to enjoy the movie, and MEDIA said he realllly liked it. But, I couldn't tell if he was joking or was serious. I really thought he was joking at first, but he's just as good at sounding truthful as myself.
Heh, but I felt kinda bad, since I asked him to extend an invite to Drew, cause it was kinda a spur-of-the-moment thing. But he declined. It's been really awesome hanging out with MEDIA, I'm just glad I have someone to vent with about all the stupid shit I see, and they actually get it.
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Shit, gonna be late for work >.
I just checked the movie on IMDB, and noticed the main character, wrote, directed and starred in the movie. Heh, explains some of the awkward acting moments.
Anyway, dunno my plans for this weekend, prolly just gonna try to keep low-key. But, I can't remember if I'm supposed to meet up with Zach, cause he told me he's upset that I keep missing his parties, that he never tells me about... And, I didn't put it in my phone, but I thought he said he was having an end of the semester party this weekend, and a holiday party next weekend... But, I only have a note for him for next weekend... I'll just ask our mutual friend at work.
I wanna go watch Narnia, I've been asked to go, but my work schedule is always shitty, so it's either a midnight showing, or wait until Sunday.
###
I've always had a difficult time falling asleep, I usually lie still for a couple hours just trying to let my mind cool down, until I can pass out. But, the couple times in the recent past I've been on someone else's bed with at least one other person, I've fallen asleep with relative ease. Which has led me to more thinking at night, about just calling someone up to ask if I could just come over and huddle up with them, so I can get a good night's sleep.
But, I don't think I know anyone well enough, or I would feel like I'm using someone, to call around and ask if anyone would mind. But, most of all, I hate myself for feeling weak.
Bleh, I don't know what to do. I just need someone to hold me down and tell me everything is fine.
I think most of my inabilities to cope with my feelings, stems from my strict catholic upbringing of, "if it feels good it's bad for you." I was brought up being praised for the more restraint that I showed toward things I deserved. Humility was my greatest virtue, and I've never been able to find a balance between what I deserve now, and what my background tells me I have to refuse.
*Sigh* I love this song, gonna get ready for work and start it over ^_^
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EDIT:
MEDIA and I went to the Dollar theater, and watched "DOOM." My blind hatred for Dwayne Johnson, made it impossible for me to enjoy the movie, and MEDIA said he realllly liked it. But, I couldn't tell if he was joking or was serious. I really thought he was joking at first, but he's just as good at sounding truthful as myself.
Heh, but I felt kinda bad, since I asked him to extend an invite to Drew, cause it was kinda a spur-of-the-moment thing. But he declined. It's been really awesome hanging out with MEDIA, I'm just glad I have someone to vent with about all the stupid shit I see, and they actually get it.
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Shit, gonna be late for work >.