i know what i should do but i just can't walk away
lately has been sort of anticlimactic. nothing really exciting has happened, im sort of still doing the chillin with friends thing, i missed cape cod on the 4th because id only be driving down for the day [thanks to the days i requested off over a month ago and then some and still got scheduled for].
i didnt think a 1/2 tank of gas was worth a 5 hr visit and the good sun was already half gone by the time i even woke up.
i have been picking up shifts at other stores so i can get some damned money.. it has definitely taken its toll on me because im starting to hit a wall.
after 2 wks of being pissed off [which i still sort of am] i decided that i wouldnt continue to ignore sean anymore. i feel sort of foolish for giving him another chance, after all of the ones i have already given him, but there is something inside of me that makes it so hard for me to walk away.
we spoke a few times and after he said he was "scared" of me [which i harshly, HARSHLY criticized], he finally asked me to do something on the 4th. we didnt have a plan and we got a late start.
we ended up at this petting zoo that he promised to take me back in the winter when they were closed. it was a cute surprise and i loved being around the animals. i got some cute pics. my favorite was sean feeding the cashmere goats his starbucks drink.
when we left there, we got some thai at his favorite place in braintree. all the while he was totally like LOOK AT MY NEW CHARGER BITCHES. its funny because i bit my tongue so hard to not make fun of it. its not that bad, but i am so spoiled with my maxima that i think that about so many cars.
some guy at the petting zoo was like HEY MAN IS THAT YOUR CHARGER?!? SICK.. but the thing was, he was wearing a sleeveless top with like -- chest hair and ink showing. he was NOT a credible source.
after that, we were both exhausted. we drove to another starbucks and whatnot, and wanted to see some fireworks but he had to work the next day and i was ready to pass out myself. we totally called it a night by like 9pm.
i dunno whats next.
im opening 6 days in a row starting tmrw. we'll see what kind of a shitshow i become. i might sleep at katas tonight because we're both opening tmrw -- her at south brookline, me at c. hill.
anyway i need to shower and figure out whats going on.
ciao.
*katelyn*
i didnt think a 1/2 tank of gas was worth a 5 hr visit and the good sun was already half gone by the time i even woke up.
i have been picking up shifts at other stores so i can get some damned money.. it has definitely taken its toll on me because im starting to hit a wall.
after 2 wks of being pissed off [which i still sort of am] i decided that i wouldnt continue to ignore sean anymore. i feel sort of foolish for giving him another chance, after all of the ones i have already given him, but there is something inside of me that makes it so hard for me to walk away.
we spoke a few times and after he said he was "scared" of me [which i harshly, HARSHLY criticized], he finally asked me to do something on the 4th. we didnt have a plan and we got a late start.
we ended up at this petting zoo that he promised to take me back in the winter when they were closed. it was a cute surprise and i loved being around the animals. i got some cute pics. my favorite was sean feeding the cashmere goats his starbucks drink.
when we left there, we got some thai at his favorite place in braintree. all the while he was totally like LOOK AT MY NEW CHARGER BITCHES. its funny because i bit my tongue so hard to not make fun of it. its not that bad, but i am so spoiled with my maxima that i think that about so many cars.
some guy at the petting zoo was like HEY MAN IS THAT YOUR CHARGER?!? SICK.. but the thing was, he was wearing a sleeveless top with like -- chest hair and ink showing. he was NOT a credible source.
after that, we were both exhausted. we drove to another starbucks and whatnot, and wanted to see some fireworks but he had to work the next day and i was ready to pass out myself. we totally called it a night by like 9pm.
i dunno whats next.
im opening 6 days in a row starting tmrw. we'll see what kind of a shitshow i become. i might sleep at katas tonight because we're both opening tmrw -- her at south brookline, me at c. hill.
anyway i need to shower and figure out whats going on.
ciao.
*katelyn*