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Jun 29, 2008 23:30

I think it's sort of a sad trend that though I do regularly stop by lj and check on my friends I generally only post when things aren't great more than when they're just normal or even really really good.

For example, I don't really miss people, but at the moment I miss someone so much that whenever I stop and actually let myself think about it my eyes well up at the very least. And it's weird...he's only gone for three weeks, I've gone much much longer without seeing him, I'll probably have an e-mail from him waiting for me when I wake up in the morning. I guess it's just strange because for the past year I've barely gone more than a day or two in a row without hearing his voice at the very least and now the major force in my life that can keep me balanced just by merely reaffirming his presence is across the Atlantic and beyond any normal stress I'm dealing with I'm even more stressed by the knowledge of the distance and the fact that we're only a couple of days into this three week period. He's having an adventure and I am truly glad for that. He's the type that absolutely thrives on new experiences. I just hope he misses me and is thinking about me even a quarter as much as I'm thinking about him.

It's times like this I sorta wish the boy were the type to take a second and articulate his feelings just to reassure me. The fact that I'm just supposed to know is hard enough doing our regular form of long distance. well...i better sleep...six hours before i have to be at work again. for three hours. then seven hour break. then i'm going back for two more hours. i do not have nearly enough money and as such will pick up any shift that they need covered regardless of how much sense it makes on the schedule, obviously.
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