Response to the Bolte
Depending on where I post from (my favorite internet cafe is a bitch about using livejournal for some reason even though it's really popular here) it's hard for me to get into comments and to read other people's entries, SO i'm replying to bolte now:
I smoke:
1. when drunk/socially
2. as an emotional crutch (I was given the advice that a stomach of steel and ...some other thing I don't remember what it was it was that useless... were all you need to survive here, but yesterday me, phoebe, clark and misha agreed that we're all just |-----| that much miserable all the time. just a little bit, but just enough and it's always there. So. I've chosen the last month and the next two months of my life to be an occasional smoker. I consider it drawn out wussy suicide in a way, a little bit of hell everyday, a little bit of death everyday.)
But i swear that in general this is the greatest adventure of my life.
Today jess and I finally got into the marble palace branch of the Russian museum and saw the photo exhibition "Разговор Руками" (Speaking with hands). It was really really great, I loved it.
I smoke:
1. when drunk/socially
2. as an emotional crutch (I was given the advice that a stomach of steel and ...some other thing I don't remember what it was it was that useless... were all you need to survive here, but yesterday me, phoebe, clark and misha agreed that we're all just |-----| that much miserable all the time. just a little bit, but just enough and it's always there. So. I've chosen the last month and the next two months of my life to be an occasional smoker. I consider it drawn out wussy suicide in a way, a little bit of hell everyday, a little bit of death everyday.)
But i swear that in general this is the greatest adventure of my life.
Today jess and I finally got into the marble palace branch of the Russian museum and saw the photo exhibition "Разговор Руками" (Speaking with hands). It was really really great, I loved it.