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[riss_18]

you say you've exhausted your options.
i guess i'm not an option.
you didn't even bother to turn around to see if i was looking up.
that won't help you in the long run, and frankly
it won't make me turn to want to see you either.
not mattering matters
to me.
it has to.

if the feeling i've described in the past as
y'rushalaim
had an archnemesis, it would be this
empty cavity filled with hurt
i am full with hurt,
as to seem that i am empty.