Cedar Creek, a nice guy, and other happenings

[riss287]

This weekend I went to the Civil War reenactment at Cedar Creek in Middletown. We left Saturday at about 12:30. Originally, the plan was for Brandon and Wendy to pick me up in their RV. However, when I opened the door, I saw William standing there. Apparently, there was some sort of misunderstanding or timing problem, so, in one care, William, Leslie, and Eric came to pick me up, and in the other Dale and Bud rode along. Bud (aka Lewis Arthur lol) was the one that Jan introduced me to at Festival of Leaves and said "Oh Marissa's single, so are you? Great, she's 22." haha. Anyway, setting up wasn't too interesting, but very cold. Dinner consisted of hot dogs. Afterwards, around the campfire, I sat on the ground with Jenny on one side and Bud on the other. They kept me warm. He made me a big stick to put my marshmallow on. He is sooo sweet, even in making me a stick! He's really understanding about me not being able to see very well. Saturday, I woke up at about 6 and we made breakfast for the men before they got ready for battle. Friday, Dale had put the moves on strong, even though he's 40, so I tried to stay away from him. I wanted to hang out with Bud more, but Ellen's daughter, Sue, was a mess and had him around her little finger. She's nuts. She tried to noose me with my bonnet. She groined him and everything. But, anyway, we hung out all day with all the rest of the people and made lunch and all that stuff. He wanted to go to the suttlers with Devon and Marcia, and he tried to go before Sue came back. He asked me if I wanted to go and held my hand the whole time we were walking around. Actually, I think this was Sunday morning, not Saturday night, but anyway, he held my hand and groaned with Sue caught up with us. We looked like a cute little family walking around in our Civil War regalia. Anyway, back to Saturday night. The only people going to the ball were people I didn't particularly want to hang out with, like Dale, so I hung out by the fire with Jan, Judy, Jenny, Gillian, and Bud and a few others. Bud and I sat next to each other and our clothes were really close together. He told me that he's completely deaf in his left ear, which I found endearing in a way. Made me feel like he might understand what I go through a little bit. We were the last two to go to bed besides Dale and this other guy. I think we were both kind of waiting for them to go to bed so we'd be alone, but they never did so we went to bed at the same time. He held my hand walking me to my tent, and when we parted ways, he said "goodnight" in a very sweet and soft voice. He is one of the most kind hearted men I've ever encountered. I don't care if he has a daughter. He's probably a really good father. He has baggage, which William was quick to inform me, but I mean, geesh, I've got tons of it, so I can't discriminate based on that.  So he, his father, and William drove me home and he just said "See ya 'round" like a friend, so I don't know.

I went to work on Monday, but Jim was annoying the poo out of me so I didn't come in on Tuesday. I came today and Bud and his dad showed up. Luckily, I was dressed nicely and had makeup on and my hair was nice. When he first saw me, he said I looked nice! I can't figure him out to save my life, but I think that he might be interested but taking things slow, which is fine with me as long as I know there is potential. So I'm just taking it chill and trying not to obsess. But it is so hard not to when I haven't been kissed in a year and a few months and haven't had a good kiss in two years!!! I'm so ready for a relationship, but I don't want to scare him, so even if nothing comes of it, he's a nice guy to have as a friend.

I have to work on grad school stuff, but I seem to have hit this road block in my brain. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but I know I need to get a major grip and get over it. Hopefully, that'll happen soon!