i cant wrap my brain around this crap im thinking
i come up with ideas for my writing, and when i sit to flesh em out, nothing materializes. i can put down ideas, but i cant get em going.
::sigh:: i've just been frustrated lately with myself. I dont think that I'm trying hard enough. I think im just going to have to take the afternoon, or whole day if i can, and try to write. I like playing music when i write. when i do anything really. especially when i cook and clean up the apartment. It motivates me to work. i love it.
damn i just got hungry.
or, i dont know. i dont think that was hunger. im walkin in those clouds right now, i dont think i can tell what that feeling was. lol, so my stomach is in cramps and i feel a hunger tickle. hehe.
so the wedding thing was saturday.
it went pretty well, i guess.
i didnt get to practice my readings at the flippin practice, so i fucked up during church, and i was making faces when i motioned for the response to the psalm. and one time i said it to get everyone else to say it, cuz i didnt really hear anyone when i didnt say it, so i said it, and then i felt dumb. someone afterward, told me that it was cute how it messed up.
anyway, it was cool. i hated being in church. i felt so evil. lol, like a total sinner.
the day before at practice, i could have done confession, and i refused to. it pissed everyone off, but my whole immediate family didnt do it, so they couldnt give me ANY shit.
walking down the aisle with paul was awesome! i REALLY want to get married.
he said that he thinks he missed a good opportunity to propose to me.
it was sweet.
he just looked over here and asked me what i was writing. i lied and said i was reading. i dont wasnt him to know that i have a livejournal. he doesnt need to snoop around and read my journal.
i think i should go now. i'll post later. dammit.
::sigh:: i've just been frustrated lately with myself. I dont think that I'm trying hard enough. I think im just going to have to take the afternoon, or whole day if i can, and try to write. I like playing music when i write. when i do anything really. especially when i cook and clean up the apartment. It motivates me to work. i love it.
damn i just got hungry.
or, i dont know. i dont think that was hunger. im walkin in those clouds right now, i dont think i can tell what that feeling was. lol, so my stomach is in cramps and i feel a hunger tickle. hehe.
so the wedding thing was saturday.
it went pretty well, i guess.
i didnt get to practice my readings at the flippin practice, so i fucked up during church, and i was making faces when i motioned for the response to the psalm. and one time i said it to get everyone else to say it, cuz i didnt really hear anyone when i didnt say it, so i said it, and then i felt dumb. someone afterward, told me that it was cute how it messed up.
anyway, it was cool. i hated being in church. i felt so evil. lol, like a total sinner.
the day before at practice, i could have done confession, and i refused to. it pissed everyone off, but my whole immediate family didnt do it, so they couldnt give me ANY shit.
walking down the aisle with paul was awesome! i REALLY want to get married.
he said that he thinks he missed a good opportunity to propose to me.
it was sweet.
he just looked over here and asked me what i was writing. i lied and said i was reading. i dont wasnt him to know that i have a livejournal. he doesnt need to snoop around and read my journal.
i think i should go now. i'll post later. dammit.