I don't know if I could yell any louder...
I need to live alone, or with ONE other, extremely respectful person. I was so excited to move in with my roommates, ended up getting sick of two of them, and now I'm fed up with them all. I guess last night was the last straw... I had to be at work this morning by 6:30, as usual on Wednesday and Friday mornings and my roommates came home at 1:09am (I know because I was SHOCKED awake) with multiple guests and they all proceeded to yell and turn up the music louder and louder as it got later and later. I didn't ask the collective group to be quiet until 4:15 because I hoped my actual roommates might have some sort of respect or SOMETHING for the fact that I was trying to sleep and had to get up at 5:30... but they never did. I did ask individuals to be quiet and they ended up being the loudest of all, even after I asked them repeatedly to be quiet AND THEY DON'T EVEN LIVE THERE. And when I finally went downstairs, shaking and almost crying from this all consuming rage, Kerry cocked her head and kind of smirked at me... is this a GAME? Does my misery amuse others? I'm beginning to think so.
If I were more spiteful, believe me, I would pay them back with loud noises and pots banging in the wee hours of the morning, preferably just after they've fallen asleep. I'm not quite sure I'm better than that, but I'm trying to be. I thought Kerry and I were on the same page about not wanting to live with Danielle again, but maybe I'm the one that needs to move out. But as desperately as I want to live alone, I think I might want ONE roommate... preferably a boy, they're much easier to deal with.
On that topic, Colorado is making itself more and more apparent to me. Every time I turn around it's as if Colorado is calling me, luring me in. Victor wants to move there and wants me to go, too... and for a while I was extremely apprehensive about it, but what have a I got to lose? It's not like I have a job here that I'm grounded in. Sure, I'd miss my friends, but I could make new ones, I always do. Courtney and Charlie will continue to be irreplaceable, but hey, I might be able to convince Courtney to come with me. I feel like I've grown out of my college friends and this pathetic college town, not to mention this fucking state. I need something new and exciting. I NEED change; I'm suffocating here.
How do I do this?
If I were more spiteful, believe me, I would pay them back with loud noises and pots banging in the wee hours of the morning, preferably just after they've fallen asleep. I'm not quite sure I'm better than that, but I'm trying to be. I thought Kerry and I were on the same page about not wanting to live with Danielle again, but maybe I'm the one that needs to move out. But as desperately as I want to live alone, I think I might want ONE roommate... preferably a boy, they're much easier to deal with.
On that topic, Colorado is making itself more and more apparent to me. Every time I turn around it's as if Colorado is calling me, luring me in. Victor wants to move there and wants me to go, too... and for a while I was extremely apprehensive about it, but what have a I got to lose? It's not like I have a job here that I'm grounded in. Sure, I'd miss my friends, but I could make new ones, I always do. Courtney and Charlie will continue to be irreplaceable, but hey, I might be able to convince Courtney to come with me. I feel like I've grown out of my college friends and this pathetic college town, not to mention this fucking state. I need something new and exciting. I NEED change; I'm suffocating here.
How do I do this?