When I stop missing this at random times for no apparent reason, I don't think I'll know who I am anymore.
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I have a chance to see him tomorrow. I don't know if I should. The thought of it all makes me want to throw up. Am I really willing to throw something so good away for a few months of cheap fun? Or was this whole mess really fate? Do I even believe in fate? Maybe I already don't know who I am...