Ready.
So with the snow comes spring semester. Odd, no? I'm sitting in the computer lab, waiting for my 4 o'clock Creative Writing class, and it's as if I never left. Good ol' RIC: early semester parking disasters, snow drifts higher than some of the buildings, and the infamous "Wind Tunnel" in full effect.
Sure, it sucks that I'm going to have to drive down here four days a week, sit through countless hours of lectures, notes, assignments, and papers, but I cannot say that I am not ready. Lately, I've been feeling as if my life is falling into place. I've noticed a lot of people writing such things lately, and I have no qualms in admitting that I am amongst those on my Friends page in greeting the new year with new beginnings. With two jobs, a full-time college career, and trying to balance a social life, I'm sure I will have enough at my disposal to keep my occupied. I look forward to it.
Vacation was long, yet for some reason seemed like a blip. I had some really great times over this break. Stephanie Sylvia came home, which is probably the highlight of my year so far. I missed her so much. She's far away in California, but it comforts me to know that I can call her anytime and she'll listen to what I have to say, even if it is all slightly overblown stories about boys and girls, work and play, friends and enemies. I re-bonded with Ms. Aimee, and I did miss her dearly. The Boys are the best. Two Robs, two Brads. And one little gay boy. I am pleased.
There are however, some reservations I hold over the events of this past month. I feel as if I've lost a lot. Though I'm not exactly sure how, maybe it is for the best. Or maybe I'm just a giant fuck-up. Or maybe everyone else is. I don't like to place blame on anyone. As Ani Difranco sang: Blame is much too messy. Whatever. It's over now, or maybe just beginning.
For all of you faithful readers, I'm sure you noticed my to-do list/new year's resolutions just before the onset of the holiday season. Let's catch up:
"(1) Make as much money as I can @ Abercrombie and Pinelli's (for Christmas gift purposes and my own needs)." --- Moderately successful. What college student isn't frequently broke? But I do have nice clothes.
"(2) Finally start my novel." --- I did start it, but just the other day, and it's not even the narrative I had previously chosen. I just feel that the longer an idea is fresh, the more promise it has in developing into something good.
"(3) Work-out and tone-up during my free time, while also watching my diet, in order to obtain the body I have always wanted." --- I have been watching my diet. Usually. But now that school has started, I have the entire gym at my disposal. Sweet.
"(4) Spend some quality time with friends, when I can." --- I did so much of that. It was amazing.
"(5) Allow myself some personal growth through new endeavors." --- New job, new year, new group. And I am growing.
"(6) Make a proper lunch-date with Heather Selman." --- Sadly, we never got to this one. But I do miss Heather Selman, and now that she is eighteen... the dance-floor is calling, baby!
"(7) Strut my stuff at the club with some girlies." --- Unfortunately, there was never sufficient time or planning.
"(8) Adequately prepare and discipline myself for next semester." --- I'm pumped.
"(9) See the movies I am looking forward to, first-run." --- Didn't happen. I steered clear of the theater. Chillen, smokin', and watching DVDs was sufficient.
"(10) Look into some writing scholarships for the 2005-2006 year." --- Oops.
I give myself an 'A for Effort'. I tried. No one can deny that.
As much as I am totally pumped for this term, and a lot of situations are looking up, I do miss what I used to have. But I need truth in my friends, and I haven't gotten it. It's less complicated this way. I never wanted to define the course of anyone else's life. Nor did I try to take anything away from anyone.
Just remember. Beautiful girls never light their own cigarettes.
Sure, it sucks that I'm going to have to drive down here four days a week, sit through countless hours of lectures, notes, assignments, and papers, but I cannot say that I am not ready. Lately, I've been feeling as if my life is falling into place. I've noticed a lot of people writing such things lately, and I have no qualms in admitting that I am amongst those on my Friends page in greeting the new year with new beginnings. With two jobs, a full-time college career, and trying to balance a social life, I'm sure I will have enough at my disposal to keep my occupied. I look forward to it.
Vacation was long, yet for some reason seemed like a blip. I had some really great times over this break. Stephanie Sylvia came home, which is probably the highlight of my year so far. I missed her so much. She's far away in California, but it comforts me to know that I can call her anytime and she'll listen to what I have to say, even if it is all slightly overblown stories about boys and girls, work and play, friends and enemies. I re-bonded with Ms. Aimee, and I did miss her dearly. The Boys are the best. Two Robs, two Brads. And one little gay boy. I am pleased.
There are however, some reservations I hold over the events of this past month. I feel as if I've lost a lot. Though I'm not exactly sure how, maybe it is for the best. Or maybe I'm just a giant fuck-up. Or maybe everyone else is. I don't like to place blame on anyone. As Ani Difranco sang: Blame is much too messy. Whatever. It's over now, or maybe just beginning.
For all of you faithful readers, I'm sure you noticed my to-do list/new year's resolutions just before the onset of the holiday season. Let's catch up:
"(1) Make as much money as I can @ Abercrombie and Pinelli's (for Christmas gift purposes and my own needs)." --- Moderately successful. What college student isn't frequently broke? But I do have nice clothes.
"(2) Finally start my novel." --- I did start it, but just the other day, and it's not even the narrative I had previously chosen. I just feel that the longer an idea is fresh, the more promise it has in developing into something good.
"(3) Work-out and tone-up during my free time, while also watching my diet, in order to obtain the body I have always wanted." --- I have been watching my diet. Usually. But now that school has started, I have the entire gym at my disposal. Sweet.
"(4) Spend some quality time with friends, when I can." --- I did so much of that. It was amazing.
"(5) Allow myself some personal growth through new endeavors." --- New job, new year, new group. And I am growing.
"(6) Make a proper lunch-date with Heather Selman." --- Sadly, we never got to this one. But I do miss Heather Selman, and now that she is eighteen... the dance-floor is calling, baby!
"(7) Strut my stuff at the club with some girlies." --- Unfortunately, there was never sufficient time or planning.
"(8) Adequately prepare and discipline myself for next semester." --- I'm pumped.
"(9) See the movies I am looking forward to, first-run." --- Didn't happen. I steered clear of the theater. Chillen, smokin', and watching DVDs was sufficient.
"(10) Look into some writing scholarships for the 2005-2006 year." --- Oops.
I give myself an 'A for Effort'. I tried. No one can deny that.
As much as I am totally pumped for this term, and a lot of situations are looking up, I do miss what I used to have. But I need truth in my friends, and I haven't gotten it. It's less complicated this way. I never wanted to define the course of anyone else's life. Nor did I try to take anything away from anyone.
Just remember. Beautiful girls never light their own cigarettes.