The Dead Leaf Echo part 2
So I lied. That over-dramatic 'last post' wasn't my last. This is me trying to salvage what I have in this journal basically.
The past couple of months have been great actually. Needless to say I didn't end up going to Seattle, nor will I ever be. Visiting is still in the plans but none of this 'moving my entire life' business. That's just not my thing. In the past couple of months I've managed to improve my self image through actually eating. Healthy even! Working out was another thing I was able to start again, though as of late it's been kind of hit or miss.
I've had to move back home which is sort of a step backwards, but I think it's helped a lot in trying to get things together again. That and it's allowed me to enjoy my free time better which has helped a lot mentally. I mean having my own room finally for a couple months was great, but nothing takes the place of a permanent room that is completely yours with all your things and not just what you can fit. There are obviously things I miss about living away from home but these are things I just have to put aside for now until I'm able to move out again this spring/summer.
And now for another good idea, bad idea.....
The day before new years I was fired from Hobby Lobby through my own carelessness. So if you're going to do something against company policy, do it, but don't let others brag about your great work or leave it for others to find. It only ends up in the hands of someone who has never liked you and ends up firing you for malicious reasons. Karma is a bitch though and they soon got what was coming to them so all is well. Also because of this I was able to find two jobs which pay be as much or better than what I was making at HL. Both of which I can wear any piercings I want, can do whatever I want to my hair, don't get drug tested, and can sit on my ass all day and do simple tasks. A nice trade off if you ask me.
So going almost a whole month without a job didn't kill me and I was actually able to become better friends with people who have meant a lot to me for a long time. Besides this I've been able to experience things that I would have never experienced had I left so early for that new life. Things that I'm not proud of by any means, but things that have benefited how I think and feel about where I'm at in life. I'm sure there's assloads of things which I'd wanna document on here but this is just my attempt at salvaging this journal as I said. I already have another for private journaling but I'd still like to keep my thoughts and current events on this one for those who care to read it.
The past couple of months have been great actually. Needless to say I didn't end up going to Seattle, nor will I ever be. Visiting is still in the plans but none of this 'moving my entire life' business. That's just not my thing. In the past couple of months I've managed to improve my self image through actually eating. Healthy even! Working out was another thing I was able to start again, though as of late it's been kind of hit or miss.
I've had to move back home which is sort of a step backwards, but I think it's helped a lot in trying to get things together again. That and it's allowed me to enjoy my free time better which has helped a lot mentally. I mean having my own room finally for a couple months was great, but nothing takes the place of a permanent room that is completely yours with all your things and not just what you can fit. There are obviously things I miss about living away from home but these are things I just have to put aside for now until I'm able to move out again this spring/summer.
And now for another good idea, bad idea.....
The day before new years I was fired from Hobby Lobby through my own carelessness. So if you're going to do something against company policy, do it, but don't let others brag about your great work or leave it for others to find. It only ends up in the hands of someone who has never liked you and ends up firing you for malicious reasons. Karma is a bitch though and they soon got what was coming to them so all is well. Also because of this I was able to find two jobs which pay be as much or better than what I was making at HL. Both of which I can wear any piercings I want, can do whatever I want to my hair, don't get drug tested, and can sit on my ass all day and do simple tasks. A nice trade off if you ask me.
So going almost a whole month without a job didn't kill me and I was actually able to become better friends with people who have meant a lot to me for a long time. Besides this I've been able to experience things that I would have never experienced had I left so early for that new life. Things that I'm not proud of by any means, but things that have benefited how I think and feel about where I'm at in life. I'm sure there's assloads of things which I'd wanna document on here but this is just my attempt at salvaging this journal as I said. I already have another for private journaling but I'd still like to keep my thoughts and current events on this one for those who care to read it.