hmm.
so, the last month has been nice. although i'm broke and there's virtually no income to be noted from my side... things are still going great. becky is the most forgiving, supportive person in the world. although i'm working towards bigger and better things, knowing that she's got my back in my endeavors means everything to me.
recently, i've been revisiting the old dreams i once had for myself: dreadlocks, a vertical labret piercing, and essentially being the person i always wanted to be. it's hard, you know, breaking through the mold. after having worked for quite a reserved system for the last three years of my life, i'm finding myself arguing with myself now and again. at a time when i was supposed to be wild in college, i was working for a school system. i've never been wild, and although i'm not leaning that direction, i'm trying once again to refocus my sights and see what i really want and need for myself.
i don't need a lot of money, i only want to work where i'm happy, and i don't really care about the way i look anymore.
i want to start reading books again. i want to start taking pictures again. i want to fiddle in the yard and spend an entire afternoon moving sticks to a better location. i just want to do what i feel like i'm missing out on. and the only silly reason i've ever been missing out is because i've been freaking working. so, i'm going to skip the middle man, work minimal hours, and do what makes me happy.
and, i'm going to start driving to faraway places again, with becky. i'm going to close my eyes, point to a map, and go wherever my finger lands. and by golly, this is what life is supposed to be:
exciting.